My Mosaic

Wow that is a busy week @Bow

Just reading that has made me tired!!

I'm glad you have got supports around you whilst your mum is away.

Not doing much for S birthday. We will have tea together and get him a cake. Most likely on the weekend he will have a few friends over for a sleepover. He is turning 16 so will get his L's.

We had it as kids too @Captain24 but nothing fancy. Think we probably just had buckets of bricks and we had to use our imagination!

Sounds like a nice way to celebrate @Snowie what kind of cake?

A chocolate cake @Bow that's his favourite

Will say goodnight to you and @Captain24 @tyme

Time for me to go to bed and get some sleep.

Goodnight all, I hope you all get some sleep tonight

Chocolate… yummm

goodnight @Snowie hon. Hope you get a good nights sleep

Hey @tyme you still around?

Yes yes @Bow ! I'm still here 🙂

Wassup?

What was the turning point for you in your recovery @tyme?

im rather intrigued by you…. You have shared with me what your mh was like…. And I have read bits and pieces on different threads about your success now. What was the biggest thing that helped??

hope that’s not too awkward!

"intrigued by you"... I like that 🙂 @Bow

Biggest turning point? I was sick of being sick. I hated my life and wanted to die. I was living to die and that's not life. The fact that I failed at dying meant I had to be alive. So the tide turned, and I began to fight my own thoughts. I worked so damn hard to not give into what my mind wanted if I knew it wasn't good for me.

Ultimately, recovery came from within me. Yes, I had the top therapy in the world, but I had to be ready.

I like this convo.

I have to hop off now, but I'll have a bigger think about your post and get back to you.

I've also always wanted to write a book about my recovery. I think I wanted to name it "Stop walking on Eggshells"... I haven't started writing it but it's all in my head lol.

I think the book will mean a lot to people (not trying to boat), but I've read so many books about BPD, and it left me absolutely none the wiser....

Anyway, chat soon.

I realised after posting what the time was and thought it was probably a pretty loaded question for 9:30pm! Sorry @tyme

im keen to hear more though. Please.

I know that recovery is possible. I’ve been there. I’ve recovered before and lead a happy and fulfilled life, therapy and medication free for 10yrs. But things are different this time. Things are different now. Harder. Worse.

I failed at dying then. I should have died though. What i did should have ended me. There was really only one reason I survived. And I ran with that and turned my life around. I’m so far from that now though.

You know I have written a book? Self published. And I have started a second one. I have a title for it too. But I’m keeping it to myself. 🙂

I’d read your book. I think it would be very insightful.

look forward to hearing more…