My Mosaic

Thanks @Snowie

I seen my psychologist this morning. It was a little helpful. We talked about choice point and worked through an example related to my eating disorder. We also did some planning for when my mum goes away. I’m very much in 2 minds about it being a good thing and a bad thing.

I then went a bought cupcakes for my D to take to school tomorrow for her class. And then I went home for an hour and then it was back to comm mh for an appointment with my pdoc. I never know what my pdoc is gonna wanna to talk about. She went the route of childhood trauma today! I was not prepared for that. She tried to understand my ED and what it’s rooted in.

I got a bit annoyed with myself in both appointments cause I have this healthy adult self and then there is this ED/ destroyer and I know that they are 2 different parts to me but I often can not tell the difference between the 2. And I find it really hard to connect with my health part cause the ED has been so loud and strong and present and relentless for so long, it’s all I hear.

im back laying in bed now. I was sick overnight, not sure why. But I got my daughter off to school and then I lay back in bed for a while. Then my first appointments then I lay in bed again. Then my second appointment and here I am again.
No treadmill today, I have a really sore ankle- nothing like some forced rest.

D birthday tomorrow.
dietitian tomorrow too.

im really sorry I haven’t been around much for anyone. Can’t really give from a dry cup. But know that I am often thinking of you all @Snowie @Captain24 @NatureLover @Eve7 @Jynx

You've had a busy day today seeing your psych and pdoc @Bow I think you have deserved the rest. It can tire us so much sometimes having to get up and go to an appointment.

I hope tomorrow goes well. I'm sure D is excited for her birthday.

You are right hon, you can't pour from an empty cup. You just need to concentrate on filling that cup up for yourself. One step at a time.

I hope your ankle is ok.

I haven’t got much to give either @Bow

I just want to let you know that I heard you.

I’m hoping things improve for you.

@Bow thanks for checkin in hun. It sounds like there's a lot going on for you, and it's great that you recognise that you need to focus on reserving your energy, and refilling your cup.

I hope your little one's bday is full of excitement and joy for her, and minimal stress for you 😊💜

@Bow I hope D enjoyed her morning

Has she got a favourite dinner you are having?

Hoping you are going ok hon 💜💜

Thanks @Snowie @Captain24 @Jynx

D had a good morning. I always let her sleep with me the eve of her birthday so I can snuggle and say happy birthday as soon as she wakes up. She loved her dressing table. I sent her off to school with her ‘it’s my birthday’ badge on and a tray full of cupcakes to share with her class.
She wants McDonald’s for dinner and I’ve gone and got some fresh donuts for a donut tower cake. She will get a fancy cake for her party on Sunday.

I did the right thing this morning and went and got my bloods done. And I have my dietitian appointment shortly. Im struggling mental with my ankle injury and the limitations it’s putting on me.

Hope y’all have a good day

So glad that D had a good morning @Bow I'm sure here night will be just as good.

Well done for getting your bloods done. I know how stressful that can be for you.

I hope your appt. goes well.

That’s such a nice way for her to start her morning. @Bow. I’m glad she had a good one. I’m sure she will have a good day at school and love her donut cake when she gets home.

Im so glad you got your bloods done. I have to do mine too but I’m putting it off.

I hope the dietitian appointment goes well for you and you can’t meet somewhere in the middle.

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@Captain24 wrote:

My last CM told me that everything was my own fault and I did it all to myself and she was the person that was supposed to be MH trained!

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@Captain24 I'm horrified by this! That is abusive of her!

Hi @Bow , I hope your D had a good birthday and you are OK...