My Mosaic

I had a little human bunking in with me last night @Paperdaisy thats why I didn’t sleep well. She wriggles a lot. And my bedding was all over the place cause I didn’t make my bed yesterday. I made it this morning, so it’s all neat and tidy now ready for me to crawl into bed tonight.

I do spend too much time on social media scrolling, comparing. There are some good things on social media, I follow a lot of recovery accounts… but even then I compare myself, get down on myself that I can’t be further along in my own journey.

I know how that is @Bow I have two little munchkins who like to snuggle up all night 😊 trying to enjoy it cause I know it won't last forever.

I ended up deleting my social media to see if I felt different and I have to say it's been a good thing for me. Everyone is different though. Maybe you're exactly where you need to be in your recovery journey. It looks different for everyone as we're all unique, there's no right or wrong way to recover. You're doing the best you can and I see that in all of the work you do. You'll get there Bow, I know it's hard.

Yeah it won’t last forever eh @Paperdaisy bunking in with me is a treat now days cause I really need my sleep and I don’t sleep well as it is. We co-slept for many years cause she was such a bad sleeper and it was just easier. Then I discovered melatonin! It’s been a game changer for her, just wish it worked for me.

I sometimes do a month long social media fast. It’s good. But I always feel like I miss so much during that month. I picked up so many useful and helpful travel trips from pages for our trip last year. I would have been such an anxious traveler without them. And there are so many parenting pages, mental health pages… but amongst all of them… a lot of comparison too. But I hide a lot on social media cause I am terrified of my ex.

Struggling to hold it all together tonight

Here if you need @Bow

Thanks @Captain24

s’all just getting too much

Hey @Bow ,

It sounds so hard tonight. I acknowledge that you are doing your best to hold it together. Is there someone you can speak to tonight? @Bow

@Captain24 and I are here.

Hi @Captain24

Nah @tyme no one tonight. Feels pretty lonely in my head

I'm here if you need a chat. Otherwise I'm here sitting with you @Bow . I hear it can be so hard right now.

Start of a new week has been overwhelming me @tyme fills me with so much dread