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What @Emelia8 said above!!!

I am so proud of your courage in facing the trauma and agreeing to trauma therapy, @Bow . I think you said your therapist said it's linked to your ED...and I know your Ed started after your trauma. Also I know personally that working through my traumas have helped me to move on and get some healing. This was significant as I was stuck in bed with severe depression and intense SI for 3 years.

I will be thinking of you this morning at 10.30... I hope you can speak. If you find speaking hard, I wonder if you could write it down for her to read? Even in the appointment itself, if beforehand is too hard?

Well done, and sending you heaps of 💜 and good wishes and for this to be the start fo your healing from the trauma and also the ED...

thank you @NatureLover @Captain24 @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Paperdaisy ... it really means alot to know that i have your support in this.

I tossed and turned alot last night. and have alot of nausea this morning. Ive just had a zoom appointment with my ED psychiatrist, it was short thankfully, but i told her what i was starting today. She was supportive but also understood that it was going to be hard work.

Im going to go try and have something to eat, my psychologist doesnt want me coming in with a starved brain.

Hope you are ok? @Bow

@Bow hoping your appointment went ok hon and you were able to have some "me" time afterwards.

Thinking of you 💗💗

Just very briefly as I am not ok, attended my appointment this morning and got through the whole story. Going back again tomorrow morning at 11am. Thank you

Sitting with you @Bow

hey @Bow, you are so brave ❤️

have you got some strategies to rest and keep safe tonight?

Sitting with you

Sounds like you did great @Bow 👍💕🙏 well done.

Such a courageous lady.

I wont lie to you and tell you that tomorrow will be easier. In all likelihood the process will get harder before it begins to get easier. But please persist and see this therapy through to its conclusion. The pain fear and intense anxiety you have felt as a result of your trauma for way too long, will slowly lose its grip over you. Definitely something to work towards.

I have a self soothing list @Former-Member which my psychologist and I put together yesterday and she has encouraged me to use the list, but I haven’t really been able to engage with any of them. Really struggling to stay present at the moment and not think about ways out of this.

@Bow what do you think is so difficult about engaging in the list? I wonder if you can take it one step at a time or just try to start an actively?

I think in a distressing time, it's understandable that you may be thinking about ways out. Are you worried about being safe for now?