My Mosaic

@tyme No that’s my younger brother.

Oh! So the older one, the one you want to bring over, is the one not working, on his own, and has no commitments? No wonder you are upset. @Bow

Yep! Super easy for him to put his life on hold for a few weeks and jump on a plane @tyme

but anyways! Thank you for listening @tyme i do appreciate it. My daughter has just got home from her fathers and I wanted a hug cause I’m sad… but she’s not in the mood 😞

Life's not easy juggling motherhood, daughterhood, MH....but your efforts are to be acknowledged @Bow .

I have a deep appreciation of your posts tonight and I think it really highlights your strength. Once again, thank you for trusting us with your story.

Here's hug for you.

My psychologist sent me home with some homework today. To send her a photo of little Bow… when she was a little girl. She wants to use it in session when talking about my vulnerable child. I was ok with this. I could do that.

well, didn’t realise how difficult a task that would be!

I’ve looked at photos before. But it’s like I have different glasses on now. I found the photo. She was 10. So much had already happened to her.

I feel so sad. A deep sadness. Grief.

Just need today to be over

I hear you @Bow I'm sorry today was hard 💝

Listening hon @Bow

💕💕

I’ve been connected with this organisation that supports folks like myself with mental health issues get out and socialise (I think that’s what they mainly do?). I’ve avoided actually going to anything for a really long time, my anxiety gets the better of me and I make up excuses. Just don’t feel like I would fit in- it’s a big fear of mine.

Today I finally went. I told my peer support worker that I would go aim to go to the craft group. it’s only for an hour. I sat in my car for ages… like I always do when I go somewhere, hoping the ground would swallow me up or something. Then I wandered in. It was a small group. My peer support worker was there, I didn’t know anyone else. We were to make Christmas baubles. I sat quietly and got to work while everyone else chatted and crafted.

Although it was ok making craft… I just don’t fit in. I don’t fit in anywhere I go. I’m too different.

I totally get it @Bow. I went to the Work Christmas party and sat in the car for 1/2 an hour and I knew them! I left early. My social phobia was out of control.

I hear it was really hard. Especially to know no one. But be proud of yourself because you went. Keep trying and trying different social activities. Maybe someone will be a fit for you. I’m hoping if we keep trying to get out of our comfort zones that it may get easier.

Everyone is different and everyone has different experiences.

Well done! I’m proud of you!