My Mosaic

It must be hard to find a dietitian who is well educated on ED's @Bow I hear how disappointing that is. Will you be able to drop back from once a fortnight so it's still manageable?

@creative_writer @Paperdaisy I may drop back to monthly and see how I manage that. She knows that I am on a pension, so doubt it will make any difference.

I have also enquired at another service that I seen pop up on Facebook recently.

Do you look at your life and realise what a complete waste it is? I have zero motivation. I have laid in bed all afternoon. There are so many things that I could be doing. I’m tired of living like this. I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of being unwell. I wish the last attempt was successful. I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. I wish to not be here

Hey @Bow, sounds like a rough time. Sounds like you're feeling a lot of guilt around resting today, which is a tough place to be. I know a lot of us have been in a similar place.

Do you think reaching out to someone for some support today could be useful?

I also thought I'd share this post about how to create safety when talking about suicide and thoughts of suicide which DaisyDreamer created a while ago,

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I’m so sorry I’m such a waste of space. I am repulsed by the person I have become.

hey @Bow, we're here to listen. Like @creative_writer said, sometimes our mental can make us think things about ourselves and feel worse about our selves.

I'm wondering what you need to feel a bit better or remind yourself that these feelings will pass?

For me, I try to spend time with other people to distract myself or just say 1 thing I'm proud of myself for (even if it seems small). Not sure if that might help?