My Mosaic

@Bow I'm sorry your dietician appt was cancelled, after all that time worrying and psyching up for it!

Also sorry to hear how depleted and exhausted you feel 😞

Sending you hugs 💜

@Bow so to hear about your appointment. It is hard when our supports cancel.

I hope there is some good in your day today 💗💗

I had bloods done yesterday morning. My potassium has been low. Suppose to of been taking meds for it- but I haven’t…. Destructive thoughts? Or other stuff which is just to complicated to explain. My gp called later last night saying she was still trying to chase up the results and would call from home if she gets them as she is about to leave for the day.
She called this morning- she’s not even working today , bloods still the same. Sigh. I knew that they would be. But still. My heads a mess today. Need to keep myself safe.

@Snowie Good to see you. Was thinking about you the other day, hoping that you were ok as I hadn’t seen you around. Hope your ok?

It’s been all consuming today. Can’t anymore.

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@Bow wrote:

My gp called later last night saying she was still trying to chase up the results and would call from home if she gets them as she is about to leave for the day.
She called this morning- she’s not even working today

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You have a very dedicated and caring GP @Bow ! 😮

That's not good that yesterday was so tough...how are you doing today?

💜

@NatureLoverdon’t want to be here today. Too hard

Don’t think I don’t grieve because you see no tears. A river rages deep inside of grief and loss and pain.

Just because I don’t cry now, don’t think my hearts not broken. I keep inside the misery of words not to be spoken.

Sometimes I smile or crack a joke so you won’t see the pain, or notice how my hands will shake or how I’ve gone insane.

Each time I chance to think of him my heart is ripped inside. The loss I feel is mine alone. You will not see my thunder.

I feel so beat in this race

unable to keep running

the journey seems endless

the battle unbeatable

I see no victory

not for me anyways

i have been challenged enough

accused betrayed and fatigued

I have nothing left

i feel powerless

the last ounces of energy

sucked from my inner most being

i sit in tears

drop my head low

lift my hands high

and claim defeat.