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Hello @Bow ,

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Take care,

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🙏 @Bow 💞

This morning I dropped my daughter off at her fathers. I am not ok with this and never will be. We have been separated for 4 years this coming April and it hasn’t got any easier. What this man did and who he is destroyed so much in me.

My anxiety is extreme today. He lacks a lot of basic parenting skills and I am concerned for my daughters safety every time I drop her off. Today is her first full day with him. 8am- 6pm. She likes going, that stabs me right in the heart. But I do know it’s only for the toys, she says that, but it doesn’t make it any easier.

I have many reasons to be concerned, some have been reported to the police and child protection but I won’t bore you with them. Today will be a long day. I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel really overwhelmed with everything and struggling to keep my head above water at the moment. The anxiety of today, plus my doctors appointment on Monday and trying to manage things until then. Wednesday I am suppose to be having lunch with 2 friends and I am already thinking about that and how to deal with it, even get out of it. How do I have lunch with friends when I won’t eat?

@Eve7 I hope you are doing better today my friend. And I hope that today is a bit lighter for you @Emelia8 hi @Anastasia thank you all.

Oh @Bow

That is a heavy burden to carry and I hear you. I used to worry about when mine went to their father's and I didn't have the safety issue. I am really sorry that you do and hope that in time changes come about to keep your daughter safe.

I read you like to paint, could you keep yourself busy that way? A walk perhaps? I'm going to head off shortly for one just need to get a few more chores out of the way. Sending you strength cause you've got this 💪✔️💞☕🌷

@Emelia8 @Eve7 @outlander hello and love to you all too 👋☕☕☕🌷🌷🌷

thanks @Anastasia at the moment all i can do is make sure she knows whats ok and whats not and ensure that i instil in her safety measures, like looking before you cross the road- he let her run out and across the road when she was 2! just little things like that which he just either has no clue about or just simple doesnt think. ive put her in swimming lessons and so thankful that she loves, he left her unsupervised in the backyard pool when she was less than 2. i was fuming mad. and im big on making sure she knows what her body parts are called and that noone is allowed to touch them- this is my biggest concern and fear @Anastasia

i do like to paint. and i popped into the shops this morning to have a cuppa and i got another pair of shoes to paint. ive been on the treadmill this morning and its come out rather warm today, so maybe a walk this evening. hope you enjoyed your walk? and the rest of your day goes well.

You're a great Mum @Bow

She is very lucky you take good care of her, she needs you.

Oh that sounds lovely. I didn't see the pair you shared with @Eve7 but I am sure they were lovely.

Enjoy your day of painting, your daughter will be back soon x

You’re both amazing mums @Anastasia @Bow

Good on you for getting out today and having some activities to keep you occupied.

I did see what you posted the other night and thought the shoes were awesome! I did a frozen rock and will look for the picture.

I'm excited @Eve7

*Waiting patiently to see...

@Bow @Emelia8 and anyone else

Thinking I'll do my nails whilst I wait💅

Don’t be too excited @Anastasia @Bow

I’ll try again