My Mosaic

Just stopping in to let you know I care about you and am thinking and praying for you today @Bow . Please stay safe and check in when you can.

Theres a precious little person needing you to be well.

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I woke up this morning I didn’t want to @Eve7

I’m sorry you didn’t want to wake up @Bow but I’m glad you did.

Can you reach out for help? I have found the SANE counsellors to be very good.

Big hugs

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ive tried @Eve7 ive gone too far now. thank you for being my friend and others.

Please stay safe @Bow . You are important and valuable. It won’t always be as bad as it is now...I promise xo

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Thanks @Eve7 ... and others. I ended up in hospital on Monday after doing some things I shouldn’t of. I now have some help, am seeing the community mental health team today and then start with my psychologist on Tuesday.

I feel like such a failure. I hate that I am back here again and I hate that the people around me know now. I didn’t want my family to know how bad things had got cause they have their own stuff to deal with. Thankful that we managed to keep my daughter out of it though and she doesn’t know where I have been- last thing I need is her telling her father where I have been.

I’m still not eating or drink much. Nothing to do with body image, everything to do with punishing myself and the one thing that I can control in my life.

The hospital discharged me on meds that I was on 13 or so years ago. Meds that I never wanted to be on again, but here I am.

I still fight the monster inside me. Stuck inbetween wanting to go so desperately and staying because of my daughter.

I am sorry that you’ve had such a rough week @Bow but I’m glad you’re now getting support from the mh team and a psychologist.

I’ll be here with you as we walk this journey together.

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@Bow I’m sorry things are so hard. Sending you 💕💕💕

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Hello @Maggie I hope your day is a good one ❤️💚❤️

I’m such a right royal f’up. I’m such a disappointment to my mum, I can never do anything right.

She had to look after me for years when all I wanted to do was die. She funded my rehab stay. Now I’m a single mum and I’m back living with my parents and my life is spiralling out of control and here She is having to pick up the pieces.

this afternoon I was sitting at my computer talking to the HC about my appointment this afternoon, I was so frustrated and angry with myself I just need to talk to someone. Thought I was doing the right thing. Mum walks in and wants to sit and I ask her to leave as I was doing stuff.

Now she hates me. She hates that I talk to others absolutely not her. She hates that my pastors know more about mum life than she does. Now I just have to shut up and not talk to anyone. I have to keep it inside. I can’t do anything right by her. I’m such a disappointment and a failure in her eyes. I don’t know why I even bother. I wish I was gone. I wish Monday turned out different.