My Mosaic

So hard @Bow Should you try calling butterfly or the help centre this evening? Hugs 💝

The butterfly foundation would call folks on me @Paperdaisy I’ll do what I can do get by until bedtime.

That concerns me @Bow but I know you are good at telling us what you need and I hope you will do that tonight if things escalate. Going to check in with you via email. Please keep safe 💝

Sometimes I feel things in my body. In my chest. My heart. And I wonder if my body has had enough. Whether I’ve done enough to destroy myself. If my ED has finally won. I feel pains. Tingling. Sometimes I feel scared. Other times I just want the agony to be over. So I don’t have to keep fighting this horrible disorder anymore. Tonight doesn’t feel ok.

Hi @Bow ,

Sorry it's so tough for you tonight.

As much as your body wants to 'give in', there's a little flame burning within you that is keeping you going. Finding what is igniting that flame is so important.

Although SANE is not a crisis service, I'd encourage you to reach out to any of the following if you feel the need:

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Hold tight there @Bow

You are not alone,

HoldingHope5

 Thinking of you @Bow all

Thanks @Eve7 you are still in hospital yeah? Any news on when you will get home?

my pdoc called this morning… hopefully my meds will be sorted out by the end of the day and I can go to the chemist and get my AD scripts filled…. All ready to face the weekend.

im a bit disappointed. My case manager has been away all week… my psychologist was going to make sure that someone touched base with me cause I usually have support at least every second day from my CM. But I’ve had nothing, and it’s been a hard week. I’m struggling. My body is struggling. So very weak and lethargic. And it’s now almost the weekend.

Yes @Bow I’m still in the Rehab unit and won’t be discharged until next Thursday.

I hope your meds are sorted now, that’s not good. Mine have been increased so hoping that fixes this little glitch.

Lots of love 💙💙💙

Hope you are getting stronger @Eve7 ready to go home.

i will call the chemist later and see if the email has been sent through. Fingers crossed it’s all sorted!

i washed my hair tonight. i havent been washing it much lately. a side effect of ongoing restrictive eating habits is hair loss. it makes me really sad. i use to have such long thick auburn hair. it all falls out now. its thinning. :(((