My Mosaic

sure as feels like it today. just dont undertsand how quickly it all changes, i did not once yesterday have any sh or si thoughts. all i can think about now. i need to go.

Hey @Bow, I've just sent you an email as I’m concerned about how you're going at the moment

Oh @Bow I’m sorry it’s like that for you today.

Please stay safe 💙🦋💙

wish i was strong, better able to resist these horrible urges,hate me for doing it

not feeling ok tonight

Its okay to fall @Bow ... so long as you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep on keeping on. In short ... its okay sometimes to NOT be okay. Sitting alongside you. 💝

i feel so broken tonight like something is not right with me that i cant get myself together and stay together i have realyl tried today i tried to do evertyhing that i did yesterday cause i had a good day yesterday i walked did a work out made my bed went out for a bit but then i made the decision to share morning tea with my daughter in the moment i had this fleeting thought that i shouldnt do this i shouldnt eat but i passed it off and thought no i am allowed to enjoy this and went on with the rest of my day i got home a short time later and went to finish of my shoe painting and thats when i started to feel myself falling and i just couldnt stop it i thought if i stay and paint it would be a good distraction but it didnt work at all. i felt myself crash so hard and fast i didnt at all think about sh or si yesterday and its right there at the front of my thoughts this afternoon and this evening i havent been able to stop following through on it i feel terrible i cant blame anyone else ive done this to myself today i am really tired of this life of always feeling this way. i am standing on the edge tonight looking over everything inside me hurts tonight the burden that i bring to my family is not fair anymore they have so much going on for themselves i feel so alone, terrible alone drifting through this meaningless life

i cant anymore i dont want to

Those little bumps are just that @Bow - little bumps. You move on from them because you have the stength to do so.

I'm sorry you aren't feeling ok day, o hope things improve quickly for you. 💖

I am sorry it seems so awful for you today @Bow but it’s just today. Yesterday was good so let’s hope if you’ve had one good day you can have another.

Cross today off your calendar, go to bed and look forward to what tomorrow brings.

I really hope the mh team contact you soon hun as you do need professional support but until then...The Lord is your shepherd...you shall not want...💙💙💙

i dont think they will @Eve7 i got a letter in the mail late today, for some reason they have discharged me. i think there was some confusion, when i was discharged from mh at hospital they discharged me from their care all together, even though my discharge letter says mh follow up.

ive been crying.

no end except one end

Stay safe @Bow please.

Maybe worthwhile contacting mh team and asking them for help.

Please don’t give up.hun. I’m praying for you now.

❤️🙏❤️