My Mosaic

Could it be anything else?…… as in why my CM hasn’t returned my phone calls 2 days in a row @AuntGlow?? or were you referring to something else? Sorry

Yes, I was referring to your CM! @Bow 💛

Hi @AuntGlow

Im ok, ECT paused atm due to waiting for approval. Not sure when it'll happen.

Im sure your mum wouldn't mind @Bow especially if it helps.

You are being very proactive hon with your CM, I'm proud of you.

I agree, let your brother eat whatever he wants!!

Ohh i love kaisercraft, we have one in our town.

It's bin night here too so normally do a bit of a clean out of my fridge on Mondays.

Hmm well I can for sure list a couple of things @AuntGlow

maybe the receptionist forgot to send the email that I had called- but two days in a row? Unlikely.

maybe she is actually away- but they have a whiteboard in reception listing all who are away. They would simply say she’s away today instead of trying her extension and then telling me she’s not at her desk at the moment. So not likely.

maybe she was just busy. Again but 2 days in a row? She couldn’t spare just 5 minutes? I haven’t spoken to anyone in over 3 weeks. The last I spoke to my CM I told her I was heading to tassie cause my brother had been given 3-10 days to live. I’m sorry but it’s gonna have to be a bloody good darn something else…. Ignoring people in need can push people over the edge.

These are some really great potential other circumstances, and maybe there are some things we don't know about? Of course, it's also okay to acknowledge how you feel, because that is valid too. 💛

How can you nurture yourself tonight and what do you have control over in this situation? @Bow

Thank you for updating me. @Snowie

I hope you are able to access more support soon. Have you been journaling? 🥰

@Bow

I’m so sorry your CM didn’t get back to you again. While I can imagine alternative reasons for why she hasn’t called you back, that doesn’t change the fact that she hasn’t been there for you when you’ve needed her or the real impact on you of that. It makes a lot of sense that it would bring up all of those overwhelming feelings.

I hope that you are able to talk to someone at comm mh soon, whether it’s her or someone else. Would it almost be better if it was someone else at this stage? Also, for what it’s worth, I do think that it would be very warranted to ask your mum to call them. Even with everything else going on, this is important enough that it’s very much worth her calling.

Also, I had a thought, would you feel better about calling BlueKnot if you called them at a time in the day when you were less overwhelmed just to ask a bit about what they do and how they can help? I wonder if that would feel safer? No pressure of course!

Thinking of you with your brother as well. 💛

@Snowie

I’m sorry that waiting for the approvals means delaying your ECT! That really doesn’t feel right.