My Mosaic

Thats a strange question @Bow I wonder if she meant you have contact with a SW all the time if needed.

I guess there are people that live in supported living? And I had my SW with me on Monday when I seen this person at the centre @Snowie

I don’t know. But is that what she thinks I need? She was very pushy about me going to hospital.

my SW came and did a quick home visit today. I think she understands how dark things are for me. How much I am struggling. She talked about how despite me feeling my lowest and darkest I still get up and get stuff done… cause I have to. Anyone else would probably be just in bed. I nodded. I agreed. It’s so exhausting. I really wish I could just be in bed all the time, sleep, hide. But I can’t. 1. Mum would worry so much. 2. I have people and things that rely on me.
Mum goes next week….. good that I will be able to do what I want, be in bed, sleep. But could also be bad that I’ll get stuck in that place and not be able to get out.
My SW said today that it’s ok to have a day like that, even she has a day like that every now and then, time to recharge and rest, but I can’t stay there. She knows that I’ve been there a week, nearly 2 and that’s not good.
I really hope things go ok with her daughter’s surgery on Monday and she back at work on Wednesday- the day mum leaves. She did say that if while she is away, I need a home visit to make sure I ask. I am allowed to ask for that.

sorry that was a lot.

how are you?

Never thought about that @Bow Something I guess she could have found out if she read your file though.

I can see where they are coming from, they just want you safe, but if only we could just think about ourselves. We have others that rely on us.

Glad your SW came today, especially if she is taking some time off next week.

She is right. You do need to give yourself credit hon. You are getting up, are functioning, are trying to be there for D. Alot of people would just give up.

I always find when H is around it's easier to function. Sometimes I think having that other person there does make it a bit easier.

Remember when your mum goes away you do have us here. You can reach out if you need. You are allowed to ask for others to help. I know it can be hard though.

I'm ok thanks. Been a busy day. Not much time to think so probably a good thing.

Thanks @Snowie

I’ve run out of words sorry

just finished loading the car up for tomorrow.

sitting on the couch sipping on my mango coconut drink and will crawl into bed soon. 5:30am will come around very quickly.

sorry

No need to be sorry @Bow

5:30 will certainly come around quickly. I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight

Take care hon 💕💕

Hey @Snowie

Hey @Bow

How are things?

@Bow , do you have the markets this weekend?

Hi @tyme

hanging by a thread here it’s a new kind of low

but yes, market tomorrow. I’ve finally just crawled into bed. So much prep the night before. And had to sort D out too. But I’m in bed now and need to sleep. Up at 5:30am

goodnight @tyme @Snowie

Good night @Bow

I really hope you get some sleep

Talk again soon 💗💗

Hi @tyme Hope you've had a good day

Heading to bed too. Hoping for a better nights sleep.

Thanks for popping in to say good night. All the best for tomorrow. Please rest up for the both of you @Snowie @Bow

Take care. I'm thinking of you both.

Good morning @Bow

I hope you got some sleep last night and the market went well or is going well.

Talk soon hon 💗💗