My Mosaic

I understand and I know this is a lot for you to hold right now. @Bow

hmm, what would you like to share with him? Maybe we can find the words together? 💛

It will be simple @AuntGlow

… a lot of men in my life have proven to me that men can not be trusted. This here is not my preference and I don’t think I can do it, but I’m not ok so I will just dip my toes in…

that is basically the message I want him to know. Are the words right? I don’t know. But I am really not ok tonight. There is a lot of big bad words rolling around inside. Thinking about certain destructive things and on the verge of tears.

Thanks for those pictures. I totally agree with you @Bow . Pictures speak louder than words. I really hope things improve for you.

Yeah I know I’m just a nuisance and a burden @tyme

I'm sorry you feel that way @Bow

If it really were the case, then I wouldn't've come here specially to check in on you, right? @Bow

I think this is perfectly said because it's honest. There is no right way to share how you're feeling - especially in therapy. I think you're allowed to share what feels right to you in the moment (and that's allowed to shift and change). @Bow

What might you need from him to build a sense of trust?

And I am with you. How can we practice some self-soothing tonight? 💛

@AuntGlow I wouldn’t even know how to…. Or where to, start in being able to trust a man. Honestly it’s not something I’ve needed to/ wanted to do. No males in my life apart from my brother. That is why it is a very overwhelming/ panic inducing thing and I really just don’t want to do it.

self soothing…. No idea . Don’t care much to tonight I’m so tired of everything

I understand what you mean. 💛 @Bow

Hmm, I am just thinking what other options you may have... have you chatted with CMH about online options to see a female psychologist?

Also, I know that you really excel at writing your feelings down. Could you share these thoughts in an email before you see your psychologist? Perhaps your support worker can help you with this process too?

Can you turn to something creative? Or even something Disney/Lego related? I know that usually helps you to feel more grounded.

PS: I really loved your pictures. They are so relatable. 🥰