My Mosaic

Yeah every day was a huge day on the cruise @Snowie there was an app, or you could get a paper copy, of the daily schedule. We were constantly running from activity to activity. Character meet and greets were big on the agenda, but frustratingly the wait was often 1hr+. They really needed to limit it to one meet and greets per character. The family that we sat with for our dinners had gone 5x to some characters, and we seen people do a meet and greet and then get back in the end of the line. But we also did some learn to draw classes, there was nearly always a movie of some kind on in the multiple cinemas. There was trivia, a baby crawling race! (lol) D spent a bit of time in the pools, I actually didn’t get in the pools. There was 3 big shows that we went to, we seen Adam Dean, a magician, he was amazing! We seen the frozen musical show and then the last night was the show that has been running for over 20 yrs, it was so good!!! Weren’t allowed to take any photos at the shows.

the food was amazing. Breakfast and lunch were a buffet with so much to chose from. I pretty much picked some safe foods and stuck to that every time. Dinner was a bit of a mixed experience. One night mum and I booked into a really nice restaurant, it was an amazing experience, food utterly delicious, service amazing. We went to a couple of our dining reservations thats were it was a mixed experience. Animators palate was fun, we all drew a character and while eating, animators behind the scenes turned our drawings into animations which they put up on the scenes. We then got our drawings back with a gold sticker saying official Disney animator. Dinner was always 4-5 courses! There was pizza, burgers, chips, ice cream, fruit and cookies and goodness knows what, on tap most of the day. I really struggle a couple of days in with the amount of food, always felt like I was eating, felt overwhelming, my body didn’t like it and I hated how I felt. I craved a simple cheese sandwich.
The top deck parties were heaps fun. Saul away, pirate night and New Year’s Eve. It felt pretty surreal being out in the middle of the ocean having a party, music blaring and no one would hear us.

oh our door!

 we loved doing laps of the decks and looking at everyone’s doors, leaving pixie dust gifts and magnets. We got left some cool stuff in our pocket too.
@Jynx @Eve7 @tyme @rav3n @AuntGlow @Ru-bee

what’s happening with your mum? Only if you want to share…

Wow @Bow it sounds full on but so much fun! It seems like there were so many different things that you could do.

I'm so happy that you all enjoyed yourself. Hopefully it will be memories to last a life time. It's great that D enjoyed it too. I can imagine how big New Years Eve would have been.

Mum's just being herself. More things she is struggling with. Getting frustrated so taking it out on me. She's angry at my brother so once again takes it out on me. I took her out yesterday and she complained the whole time. I don't care about her, could visit her more, just leave her to rot in the home. Mentally it's not helping.

Sounds like a great time @Bow Im so glad you enjoyed it all. What wonderful memories

Hi @Bow! Still catching up on everything after the break but just quickly wanted to pop in and say that the cruise sounded great! Although maybe a little tiring 😄

@Eve7 @Snowie great to see you also 😊

Hi @Ru-bee

So nice to see you back. I hope you had a nice time off and a nice Christmas/New Year

Good evening @Bow hoping you've caught up on some sleep.

Sending lots of 💕💕

It’s Monday today. The first Monday of 2026. The beginning of the first full week of the year. And I hate it already. Yeah I just got of an amazing cruise, and yes I had a good time, but reality has hit hard today. Did the groceries this morning, picked up my meds this morning, visit from my SW this afternoon and all the doom and gloom is weighing heavy.
trauma anniversary fast approaching with my SW going on leave as of Wednesday for a week and still no psychologist. Feel like I am spending so much time at the moment in flight response, which is really hard while trying to parent. I need support.

Hearing you @Bow having to adjust back to daily life after having a break can be really jarring and overwhelming, but it sounds like you've been doing your best despite that. How can we support you here this week? 💗

I think somewhere down inside there’s this tiny part that went into the new year hoping that 2026 will be better @Ru-bee that I’d arrive back at port and things would be different . But I know things don’t work like that.

I want things to be different. I desperately want to be better. To be well. Able to function in life. I’m so terribly over this existence. But I don’t know how. Nothing seems to help. It’s just constant torture.

im not really sure to be honest. Not feeling so terrible alone and unwanted? Checking in

Thanks @Snowie it's really great to be back. Feeling rested and recharged after the break and happy to see everyone, I hope your holidays were good and you also got some time to rest 💜

Hey @Snowie it’s definitely been nice being back in my own bed. But I haven’t really been sleeping well though. Been having alot of back pain and waking in the early hours feeling headachy from what I think is clenching my jaw in my sleep. I should probably find my mouth guard. Nightmares too. But D has sure been catching up on sleep! Had to wake her this morning to get up and go do groceries.

how r u?