My Mosaic

@Bow hey hun, how's your week been?

Sounds like you've had to explain yourself again - gets soooo exhausting hey.

I actually hung up @Jynx 😩 I was so angry. My CM is on 2 weeks leave, this is the first week. She set me up with an interim CM. I’d heard nothing all week until 4pm on a Friday… it really feels like a last thought at the end of the week… tick the box kind of thing. Wasn’t even my interim CM. The woman knew nothing about me. She thought my interim CM was my regular CM and my regular CM was my psychologist. She asked how I was, I said not so good. ‘Oh is that why you’re seeing **** (my CM that she thought was my psychologist). I said not so and told her who was who. ‘How’s your sleep and appetite?’ Shit I said. Oh. Are you on medication? That’s when I hung up.

why???? Why is it so hard to have a quick look up at who you are calling?? Why was I the last thought on a Friday??? What about all week???? They have a team meeting every bloody morning, do they not communicate stuff??? Just not worthy of peoples effort and support. No one wants to care. No one wants to help. I’m so fuckig over it. Just ignored by everyone

@Bow absolutely legit to feel forgotten and like the 'last minute thought' - hard not to get hit with those feelings of rejection and abandonment.

I know it's not always worth the energy for you to do so, but would it help to make a complaint?

Any highlights or glimmers from this week?

Sending some hugs 💜

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Been a lot of that this week @Jynx … rejection and abandonment. It really hurts.

I don’t know whether it’s worth the bother… and then another layer of rejection and abandonment when they do nothing. maybe I’ll talk to my SW on Monday about it. She’s got another client who has the same CM as me and the same interim CM as me. So basically in the same position. Wonder if they got a last minute Friday afternoon call too?

Glimmers…. Highlights…? Hmmmm D had a great time at camp. But slept 13.5 hrs and needed the next day off school! I was a bit brave and shared some stuff with my SW this week and was able to be honest with her around what I needed. Are they glimmers and highlights? Also been smashing out things for our cruise. Ticking things off my list.

what about you?

I like the idea of you 'palming it off' @Bow - let them know it wasn't okay but not have to deal with any of the follow up. I hope your SW is able to support you!

Yeah those are absolutely glimmers/highlights! I see highlights as those bigger moments - like D having a good time at camp! - and glimmers as tiny moments - like getting a superb sleep! Our brains are so good at focusing on the negative, so it helps me to put energy towards acknowledging the positive stuff too - no matter how small. Getting a lil spark of joy from seeing a wee bumble bee? That's a glimmer! Planting new flowers so the bees will come? That's a highlight!

I literally made that up by the way, that's just how I see it 😉

Omg it's getting closer!! How long till you leave?

Highlights were probably having a really solid psych appt this week and discovering one of my fav psytrance artists has released a new album! Glimmers were watching my silly kitties try to 'stalk' a mouse (poorly, lol), picking more fresh raspberries, and discovering my fav ginger beer (Bundaberg Spiced) is back on the shelves! They only sell it during the festive season, I bought two 4-packs 😂

Just jumping back online quickly before switching the light off and trying to sleep @Jynx 5:30am alarm for our last market for the year. It’s late for me…. But had surprise visitors x2, had to pack car, feed and sort kittens out, have shower and organise drinks for tomorrow… gonna be very hot. I shall reply to your last comment tomorrow… but had a Ahuh giggle to this

@Bow bahaha omg so accurate. Wow what a whirlwind!! Yes chat tomorrow, rest well hun 💜

Hey @Jynx im home vegged out on the couch with the ac on. Market was extremely hot today. It was nice first thing in the morning, but the heat crept in pretty quickly. I felt bad, but mum said she was ok, but I had to go sit up near the hall. I just don’t cope with the heat. Market was very busy first thing. People had the right idea of coming out early. The market committee let us pack up a bit early too. I did alright today with sales.

I will most definitely be letting my CM know what happened. Whether it goes any further than that who knows.

I getcha now about highlights and glimmers. So a glimmer today was that I got a park straight away at the shops on the way home. And I managed to find everything I needed and got out quickly.

22 days @Jynx !

they sound like good highlights and glimmers! Hoping I get allocated a psych in the new year.

only 2 more sleeps with my swifty gang. Taking them back to the clinic on Monday morning 😞

@Bow oh we are the same - I despise the heat. Makes me cranky!! What are you doing to cool off this arvo, any good swimming spots around?

Oh yes, fabulous lil glimmer!! The shops are always so overstimulating so it's great when it's over and done with quickly!

A glimmer from my morning was being gently woken up by a purring kitty and the gentle rain on my tin roof. Usually waking up is pretty hard, my brain always feels so sluggish of a morning. So it was super nice to be moved from slumber so sweetly, eeeeven if it was a little earlier than I'd have liked 😅 Who can blame Trixie when she's got a warm lap to snooze on I spose 😹

omg it's getting closerrrrr!! So SO exciting!! What are you most looking forward to about the cruise?

Aww! It'll be so sad and quiet in your home.... 🥺 But probably cleaner and less frantic, lol 😝

Couch and the ac/fan is where I plan to remain @Jynx don’t wanna move! I did go downstairs and spent some time with the kitties, they are all snoozing now though. I really don’t like going out in the heat at all. We have an open invitation all summer to my friends place to use their pool. But it’s the getting there and back I dislike. So don’t go often. It’s like being hit by a brick wall when you step outside in heat like today.

Oh that would be a nice way to wake up. Kitty purrs. I just dislike being woken in the middle of the night to the sound of them licking themselves!

there is so much I am looking forward to about the cruise. I’ve not done a cruise before. So it’s a whole new experience. But then it’s Disney on top of that. All the magic. I can’t wait to tell my D!