My Mosaic

At present bruschetta is my favourite breakfast but I also like smashed avocado and poached eggs @Bow

My assignment is about the biomechanics of a counter movement jump with lots of excel and trigonometry involved. It has really been doing my head in 😩

I hope your sw is in tomorrow.

Hi dear @Bow

Sorry I wasn't around last night to help.

I hope that your SW was able to visit you today and she could help, or at least listen.

Sending lots of 💗💗

No apology needed @Snowie know there are those that get a lot of support but there is absolutely no expectation you be in here. I understand that there are days more difficult than others and life gets busy💜

my SW did come by today. I sent her a lot of stuff via text last night explaining how bad things are and stuff. She was on to me early this morning to arrange a home visit and she stayed near 2hrs. We talked about a lot of things but I don’t remember much of it. Only just that I need to try and break my days down into small time slots and just getting through each of them. Like everything I need to do to get D up and dropped off at school. Then everything I need to do to attend to the kittens each morning. Recognizing everything involved in each of them tasks. And giving myself a bit of praise for each task-that I will struggle with.

im really struggling with mum being away. It’s terrible lonely. Thank goodness I have my D cause I think things would be very different. Doesn’t stop

had a good cry while my SW was here.

how are you doing?

I agree with the varying levels of support @Bow I do see it happening.

I'm glad your SW came today and spent that time with you. That was really courageous of you to message her last night. That not would have been easy to do.

I do agree with giving praise for each task hon. Even the smallest of one's can feel like such a huge task, depending on how we are going at that point in time.

You deserve to be recognised for each and every one.

When is your mum back?

I'm ok. Had pdoc (via phone) yesterday. Added another med for prn. He wants to speak to H too. Have to get my butt in gear and go pick it up from the chemist.

Can’t say anything though @Snowie

Took D out for dinner tonight. Local hotel does 1/2 price meals. It’s good food.
Also bumped into a market friend. She does alot of the markets that we do. She’s nice. Had a chat with her.

I was glad SW could come. She talked a lot though. Guess she wanted to make sure I got the message…. X100 it was a lot though.

I really struggle with praising myself. I don’t. But find it very very easy to criticize and put myself down. Now that comes naturally.

mums back next Wednesday.

Your pdoc seems good yeah?

I agree @Bow zipped🤐

That was nice for dinner, even better with 1/2 price meals and that the food is good. Saves cooking.

I totally agree with praising ourselves. It is so easy to criticise and judge ourselves.

Hopefully the next week goes quite quick till your mum comes home.

Have you got your group on tomorrow?

I really struggle with praising myself too. I find it so easy to criticize and put myself down too.

Can see the 'good' in others but not myself.

My pdoc is good. He has been with me for awhile now so knows my story. Him increasing meds is probably the right thing to do, but I know that they are not going to 'fix' everything. He wanted to increase ect too, but logistics is a problem with that.

🤐 indeed @Snowie

yeah I had one of my favourites lamb souvlaki skewers. Lamb skewers, chips, salad with feta, pita bread and tzatziki. D had a junior burger and chips. Cost $23!

Guess we can all be kinder to ourselves eh

i don’t know if groups on tomorrow. It’s been cancelled a lot lately cause they don’t have the staffing. If it’s on I’ll try and go and I’ll take my Christmas card stuff and just make some more.

Do you have much more on this week?

Ohh that sounds yummy for tea @Bow

Probably couldn't make it for what you pay when it's half price.

It keeps me away from the forums at times. 🤐🤐

I guess you can work on your Xmas cards whether you go to group or not.

Have psych on Thursday (tele health) guess it's better than nothing.

You got much on?

My friend is coming over tomorrow afternoon too @Snowie im looking forward to seeing her…. But it’s a lot. I feel very lonely. And at the same time want to shut myself away from everyone. It’s all too much effort.

Thursday I have to take all the kittens and mumma out to the vet clinic for their checks. Kittens get vaxed and microchipped. Mum gets her booster. Won’t be long and they’ll all be ready to be booked in for desexing. Lawn mower guy is coming Thursday arvo too.

friday not much. Probably see my SW again.

I’ve just crawled into bed. Got D in bed early cause she said she has been tired. I’m tired too tonight cause I had a bad night. So gonna say goodnight. Will chat with you tomorrow yeah 💜

Busy few days @Bow

Goodnight hon, hope you have a goodnights sleep