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My Mosaic

My Mosaic

My Mosaic

I like mosaic art, I’ve never actually done any, but it intrigued me. Made up of hundreds of tiny pieces of stone, glass and ceramic. If you look at it close up it doesn’t really look like anything special, if anything it looks like a mess. But if you take a step back and view the whole picture- it’s a master piece. I guess it’s kind of like life. So many tiny parts, some messy if we look just at the one part. Some day i guess I’d hope that the mess of my life will at some point look half decent.

So here is part of my mosaic, bits and pieces kept tidy together 🙂

tagging you @Emelia8 cause you asked 🙂

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Ahhhh daughters and attitude @Bow

Sorry to say it doesn't go away.

I'm sorry to hear about your pdoc. Very upsetting news

I hope you can chill the rest of the day

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That's really disappointing news about your pdoc @Bow I'm sorry to hear that

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Kitchen starts in the 17th @Bow . It’s all happening!

Pest control coming Monday to exterminate the insects!

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Hi @Jynx Hope your weeks been alright

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Hiya @Bow - little stressy cos I got some of my late grandma's furniture being delivered on Monday so I've had to make space as well as clearing a path to the house. Nothing like a looming deadline to motivate the cleaning energy!! 😂

How's your week unfolded? Any highlights?

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Oh yep that sounds like good motivation to get things sorted @Jynx

my weeks been a fairly big ol pile of :pile_of_poo: and a whole lot of big swear words.

Monday I just needed a nothing day after 2 big markets. But that didn’t happen. Woke to a beautiful big mess from the kittens :pile_of_poo: and 🤮 and part of the enclosure collapsed. I literally spent hours cleaning and putting that thing back together and reinforcing it with cable ties. I then needed a good shower.

Tuesday I learnt who the culprit was of the 🤮 when Folklore had a really rattle chesty breathing and cough. Msg on the vet clinic phone said they open at 8:30, I called 37 times until I finally got through at 9:30am. So they either forgot to turn the phones on or don’t open until 9:30. I was annoyed. I could have ducked out and did my groceries which is what I had planned to do once I dropped D at school. They said bring folklore and everyone else out to be checked. They weren’t too concerned but put him on meds and him and everyone else have been fine since. But that was my Tuesday morning gone. Had to do groceries still.

Wednesday I was just simple wrecked. Had to cancel my outing with my SW. I needed to do washing and I never use the dryer, it was a beautiful day outside perfect for washing. But I just shoved everything in the dryer. *€£€>~€¥£??’!! Lazy bow.

and I have mostly been wrecked ever since and I’m so blinking frustrated with myself cause there are things that I want to do while mum is away and all I’m doing is laying around and doing nothing.

my moods been down in the ditch. Been a few things that have really triggered me and put me in a shitty head space.

and then the cherry on the big of fat :pile_of_poo: pie is I get another new pdoc! [edited by moderator]

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Oh and half way through typing that @Jynx one of the kittens took a :pile_of_poo: in the tunnel! 🤦🏼‍♀️ none of them have gone outside the litter tray…. So why tonight? Oh that’s right to add to bows :pile_of_poo: week!

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@Bow oh my stars what the poo!! That suuuuuucks!! I swear, it's always when we're already overloaded that our fuzzy friends are like 'Hmm shall I become a chaos-hurricane? I think so.'

Trixie for instance has a habit of choosing the hard-to-reachiest nook under the furniture - and only ever on carpet - to throw up, smh 😓

I'm glad Folklore is doing better and hope that no more trips to the vet are necessary!!

Curious but.... what does this mean?


@Bow wrote:

*€£€>~€¥£??’!! Lazy bow.


Euro-pound-euro-greaterthan-dash-euro-yen-pound?

Also I'd hardly call you lazy, you have SO MUCH on your plate!! Laying around and doing nothing sounds like the perfect way to deal to me 😋

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Yep I think everyone and everything knows when your at your limit and they love to throw a bit more at ya @Jynx like i picked D up from school today and she was in a foul mood and gave me a whole heap of attitude. I told her to quit cause I’ve had a bad day too and she just ignored me and kept going. Kept finding other things to complain about.

that was just a whole lot of f’ing at myself cause I’ve been lazy.

ive spent a fair bit of time in tears the last couple of days. Have felt incredibly alone. And the on going error message ‘forbidden’ that I keep getting when on here does not help at all. Really does just reiterate that I am not wanted.
had a post that was really distressing and triggering for me. Saying that I was being punished and all the bad things were my fault. Tried to reach out by just fell on deaf door a number of times. Then cause I was so unsettled from that I could sleep so went down the rabbit hole of seeing where all my old work mates are now and that made me feel even worse. So many are so successful. Doing things. And me… nothing. And then I watched a movie yesterday. The cost. About a victim husband and brother seeking revenge when the perp was released from prison. Oh so many overwhelming feelings/thoughts. Wishing I hadn’t survived like her. Simple really. I’m safe. But I feel like shi t. I’m really not doing ok at the moment. I’ve had them 3 things happen in the course of a couple of days which is added to my already very bare minimum ability to cope at the moment. I really don’t have the capacity for anything else and I don’t know how to move through this.

sorry that’s a bit heavy. And sorry to dump it on you

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Aww geez.... I ran outta time as usual @Bow - hope the vent helped and I'll catch up with you/reply properly tomorrow. Hope you get some rest 🤞💜

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