My Mosaic

It a bad one

spiral deep fast

dark monster inside screaming swear

norty norty bad things

tellme what to do

@Jynx

I get that. It can shift so quickly and come of nowhere, can't it? 😣 @Bow

What do you feel you need most right now? And could redirecting your attention to building Lego be helpful at all? 💛

@Bow

Hello dark monster inside Bow. I see you're having a Time today. It's rough.

I know you think that telling Bow to do those things will help her feel better, but then she is the one who has to deal with the fallout, the shame, and the icky feelings afterwards. Do you think you could let her choose a less scary option?

Like lego, or chatting about markets and art, or some rubber bands and chewy ice?

I need to remember to breath first

keep catching myself holding tight and not breathing

it’s yuck

how can I do this?
how to keep going?
@Jynx

Yay, yes good stuff @Bow - our breath is one of the best ways to bring ourselves back to centre.

Like all of us Bow, you can only do it by putting one foot in front of the other, focusing on what is within your control, and taking it an hour, a minute at a time. No matter what, no feeling ever lasts forever.

You got this, and we got you 💜

Feeling bit more settled @Jynx but still very noisy inside

@Bow glad your system is settling hun. I know it gets awful loud n crowded in there hey?

Sometimes that's when I put on very loud music haha, it 'overtakes' the thoughts. What are you up to atm?

Be tot amazing if there was a magic pill to turn the volume down inside ya head yeah. Like you think of something different but then ya constantly get interrupted by these loud annoying thoughts. The amount of times I can’t remember whether I’ve said something to someone cause I get Interrupted.

im just on the couch @Jynx watching tv. Nothing interesting though. I got annoying heart palpitations tonight.

@Bow that would be amazing, for sure. And that's SUCH a mood. My brain is always skipping off on random tangents, I can imagine if it's a dissociation thing it's even more disruptive!!

Oh noooo too many thudthuds? You still doing your breathing? It may help 💜

Oh yep for sure it is @Jynx

nothing really helping tonight. Just gotta put up with it I think. But yes am doing my breathing still.

do you have any plans for the coming week?