My Mosaic

Oh... no wonder... that's pretty hectic... @Bow

I can see they value your input, but at the same time, it will need more planning.

I can see why you'd step back.. and with the 'Bow' group...hrm... did you make a comment?

Do they know you're known by 'Bow'? Or was it some coincidence?

I know they value my input and all that stuff, but it’s all too much. It’s a lot of responsibility. And while I love to give back, and I love to serve (almost everything I find myself involved in, I somehow end up serving and leading) im really not in a place to do that at the moment. I need to be there for me - that sounds selfish I know. But yeah. @tyme

No no, they used my real name ….. I just wrote bow to show you what they called it.

when my SW showed me what they called it, I was heaps hesitant. I said I wasn’t sure cause I don’t always have something to do every week and I don’t want that responsibility. She said thats was fine and I didn’t need to have something every week.
But then the next time I went to group and there was everyone asking what we were doing and all the pressure and overwhelm, I chatted with my old SW and told her what I thought and she changed it straight away.

Well done for speaking up @Bow . This is about advocating for your needs and it's so important. I really want to acknowledge and give you credit.

I'm glad to hear they listened and respected your desire.

Do you still pintrest your ideas?

Did I tell you I've been using my cricut more since the last school holidays? I made some bible verse texts and made some things for the kids.

I think you articulate yourself really well here... perhaps this isn't you? What if your ability to communicate directly correlates with how comfortable or safe an environment helps you to feel? @Bow 💛

Ugh, that's so frustrating... I can hear why this would be such a barrier for you. What comes up for you when you consider having to call?

Yes, I struggle with that step too. The compassion and nurturing can be gradual... it can be a slow soften. Maybe an affirmation to start?

I understand that! Slowing down the mind is hard. I would actually recommend listening to the audio like it's a podcast and just let the information sit with you. You could even do it whilst you are doing laundry or dishes - that way it can be mindful but not a traditional meditation session? I hope that makes sense! But completely up to you, of course.

What do you picture first when you think of 'safe'?

There's a lot of questions here, so no pressure to answer straight away. 💕

Sitting in a box it’s small and it’s dark I can feel all the sides as I sit in the corner on my own it’s safe no one can’t come in and I can’t get out no one would want to anyways it’s rather boring in here but it’s safe and it’s predictable I was never heard nor seen forgotten about and always alone a nuisance and a burden that’s why I’m here that’s why I climbed in no one will notice no one will remember no one will care anyways the lid shut tight the sides reinforced locked away forever

Hi @Bow

I know you are hurting hon.

I just want you to know I'm thinking of you and sending so much love your way. You are so worth it 💓💗💕

@Bow You are not alone hon.

Sending lots of 💕💕🫂🫂

Hey @Bow , I'm not working atm, but I wanted to pass by to give you a hug and let you know I'm thinking of you.

Worried about you hon @Bow

Sending lots of 💗💗

Missing you

I appreciate you sharing this with me @Bow. I think this is such a vulnerable and relatable image you have painted for us. I am sitting with this and thinking just how many people would resonate with what you have shared here, so thank you.

I get the sense you are yearning for a consistent safe space that is predictable, where you know you are always wanted, loved, and accepted - where people show up for you unconditionally.

Does that sound right? 💗