My Mosaic

@Bow that's impressive!! how long did it usually take to collect $70-80 worth of cans?

ooo i absolutely love those colours! it's a nice bright 'pop'!

so glad D decided to bunk with you tonight!! i do find it easy to sleep-in, sometimes i'll sleep 12hr+ if i don't set an alarm. for some reason, 90% of the time i'll feel like i didn't get enough sleep even if i have. and with winter coming, i never wanna leave my cosy bed!! how about you?

in case i don't catch ya, good night and take care. i hope you feel a lil better this weekend and get to have a cosy sleep in!! 💙

Hi @Jynx hows your Friday/ Saturday been?

@Bow reasonably chill but like... not entirely relaxed haha been tryna find the energy to do more around the house. The laundry literally just needs to be put away... I said, three days ago 😅

How's you?

Oh, unsettled inside cause your surroundings is .. unsettled @Jynx ?

I struggle to put washing away too… just sits there and I grab clean clothes when I need it.

been doing some scribbles… kinda cathartic?

@Bow yeah probably that one!! Like the classic 'I wish I'd done more today now I can't properly relax knowing how much I will have to do instead of relaxing tomorrow' conundrum 😅

Oooh amazing!! Yes I love dark, morbid art - drips with catharsis! Ty for sharing, very poignant image 😍

How do I do it @Jynx ?

@Bow Hmmm you get a pencil out and start a-scribbling?

I make joke, what are you referring to hun?

@Jynx How do I find words? More words? Better words? How do I get them to hear me better? To even show better care? To ask?
how do I do that? Cause I can’t keep going feeling like they don’t care, like they care about me.

My CM called me last night. I thought she might have been calling cause I told my SW some words and she suggested I call and speak with the patient liaison officer at comm mh- passing the baton cause I’m too difficult? Anyway, my CM was just calling to give me my next pdoc appt details and to ask how the house hunt was. Didn’t ask how I was? I was even ready to tell her. Cause it’s been real bloody dark. But no.

@Bow I hear your frustrations hun.

Perhaps you could share this post itself? Let your supports know that for you, communication can be very tricky and the best way for them to meet your needs is to be very explicit and very inquisitive.

I’m sorry

just a terrible burden taking up space and wasting peoples time

im sorry

too broken

too defeated

let the tears flow

just let me disappear

sorry

sorry 😢

@Jynx