My Mosaic

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@Bow wrote:

It’s never easy to put it into words;

There is a kind of loneliness that doesn’t come from being alone but from being unseen. It is like an emotional disconnect, where the deepest parts of yourself go unnoticed, misunderstood and unvalued. It’s not the absence of people, but the absence of connection- the gap in between.
your internal world and how it is perceived.

@Jynx

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What I think you're talking about here @Bow is the human need for belonging. How can we belong if we are not understood? This is why long-term masking of certain aspects of self (e.g. for me a huge one has been sexuality and gender) is actually painful - we realise people don't like the real us, but the thing, the mask, that exhausts us.

Aww hun, pls be EXTRA EXTRA gentle that is so much housing distress.. ALSO an unmet need, like that's lots of unmet needs hun, it's okay to be a big mess right now!! One step, one day at a time 🤞

More kitty chats tomorrow!! I will find pics, but feel free to poke me about it! 💜 Night!

My anxiety is so high today. I feel so sick

Hey @Bow sorry to hear that, those high anxiety days are awful.

Anything that's making you feel anxious in particular? I'm here to listen if it'd help to talk about, or if it'd help to talk about something completely different I'm up for that too.

Still don’t have a house to move into @Ru-bee was suppose to be out of here yesterday. Emailed our current re and let them know… and finally heard back from them today saying ‘the landlord is kind and will give us 2 more weeks.
seen and applied for a great house yesterday, and we know today they have been doing reference checks.
it’s the waiting.

it’s the unknown

Ah I thought that might've been it @Bow

What a stressful situation, not knowing what's going to happen. I sincerely hope that you hear back quickly from the house you applied for yesterday, and that your application is approved

Evening @Jynx Mr Groot giving me the stare waiting for dinner.

yes @Ru-bee had a call about an hour ago with positive news. The re boss picked our application and I think perhaps it goes to the LL now.

OOOO!!

@Bow I wish I were a contortionist so I could cross more than just my fingers for ya!!

Also LOOK AT THAT GRUMPY FACE oh my lawd I loveeee 😻

Cats are so good 💜😺

Really hoping for good news in the morning @Jynx

@current re finally responded to our email from last week informing them we wouldnt be out by yesterday. He said ‘the landlord is being kind and giving us 2 more weeks’.

this waiting in limbo sucks. I literally sat around and did nothing all day today. Arts and crafts was on, but didn’t feel up to going. I’ve not missed it before. Is usually my weekly highlight. Wasn’t missed

Groot nearly always has a grumpy face. Hehe just called him Mr grumpy bum and he got up and turned his back to me

@Bow here for ya hun 💜

A lack of contact from your arts and crafts group does NOT automatically mean you weren't missed hun. You are going through a LOT, maybe they thought you needed some space!

I'm glad you have another couple weeks, that must have been a huge relief!