My Mosaic

Within the image

What do her eyes tell

Of her tormented past

And her future so dim

Looking deep within

The sadness that’s betrayed

What could of happened

To have left her so alone

Where is that spark

that once shone so bright

Who stole that light

And left her in the dark

The stories to tell

Of her life and her doubts

All buried in her eyes

But only she will ever know

My life’s been a complete waste. I’ve done nothing. And don’t see how anything is ever going to change. I live with my mum. I’ll eventually become her carer if I get that far. She and my daughter are all that I have. Mums getting older, her health isn’t great. Once she goes, it’ll just be me and my daughter and when she gets older and leaves? No one. Alone. Just like it’s always been and is suppose to be.

It’s a very lonely existence. Sad. The things I have experienced, the things that have been done to me, horrible things. Things that are hard to comprehend. What even makes a child do that to another child? I just don’t understand. How? Why? So many secrets held so close to my chest. Words never shared.

I feel so broken. My soul shattered. Who can mend it? How can I even be better. So hopeless. Darkness smothering me, drowning, sinking. But none of it matters. No not I.

@Jynx

You do matter @Bow and you are very important.

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Aww @Bow 🥺

I think you will find your peaceful cottage life you dream of, one day. And so even on days like today when it seems like you're entirely lost in the darkness, I hope you know that dream still lives, that I will hold onto it on the days you can't. And I will sit with you here in the dark 🖤

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Don’t really hold onto any dreams now @Jynx cause they are way too far out of reach and it’s just a tease to hold onto something that will never happen.

@Bow yep, I hear you hun and that is exactly why I am holding em for now. For now, you can just allow yourself to feel whatever you need to feel. I can hear how dark it all is, but it doesn't mean you're powerless or that it truly is as hopeless as it feels.

What sort of support might be most helpful for you tonight hun? Hugs 💜

I don’t know @Jynx sit and chat? So it’s not so dark and lonely? 😔

@Bow definitely chatting, sorry I haven't been able to sit so much hun. Am a busy lil bee and sometimes get lost in my tabs lol. But I am here for ya no matter what, even if it takes me a while to respond 💜

Would you like to meet our new PSW? She's super cool, and since you're feeling lonely, maybe having a couple peeps to chat to might be nice? Up to you if I tag or not 💜

That’s ok. Just sitting on my bedroom floor. Was coming to bed but that’s as far as I got @Jynx feeling rather emotional

@AuntGlow the new psw? I’ve briefly meet them

Hello @Bow 🎀

Here for you if you would like to chat. 🤗

Hi @AuntGlow

whatchoo get up to today?