My Mosaic

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thank you @Jynx

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Anytime @Bow

Want to talk more about what's going on in the brain space? Happy to listen darlin 💜

There are not enough words @Jynx not enough appropriate words to tell, to share of the absolute repulse, disgust, vulgarness of the body that I am stuck in.

I hate it so much. So so so much.

you catch glances in mirrors. Any shinny surface I see the fat pig. Don’t stare too long.

I hate going out. What will people think? What will they say? Will they stare for long? I just want to hide. I don’t want eyes looking at me.

@Bow wish I could impart to you how much I reckon you'd be such a beautiful person if I ever actually met ya. Was talking to Captain about this last night actually, I'll share the same pic -

and you might say 'oh but Jynx my thoughts are so ugly, so it must be that's what shows' and I would disagree, because your kindness, compassion, and empathy are what would live upon your face, and that's what I would see every day - your beauty shining through!

You’d be so disappointed @Jynx

im sorry

That's the point I'm tryna get across @Bow is that it doesn't actually matter what you look like, you will always be beauitful to me!

There’s a really loud voice inside my head right now @Jynx

It might be loud but that doesn't mean you have to listen @Bow

Hugs to you hun 💜 you're not alone

Hard not to listen when it’s so loud and relentless @Jynx the words that it uses is not kind. It’s mean and nasty. Darkness. The words scare me. Telling me what to do. Telling me what to do

@Bow I wish I could shout back. Wait maybe I can, when you read my words imagine them loud ok?

HI BOW'S SYSTEM, YEAH IT'S ME JYNX. I KNOW YOU THINK THIS IS WHAT BOW NEEDS RIGHT NOW AND THAT'S LIKE ADMIRABLE AND ALL BUT COULD YA COOL IT PLEASE? SHE NEEDS REST RIGHT NOW!!

I AM NOT MAD I PROMISE BUT YOU GOTTA BACK OFF, BOW WILL FEEL BETTER IF SHE RESTS AND THAT'S ULTIMATELY WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT? BOW FEELING BETTER? KAY COOL GLAD WE COULD REACH AN UNDERSTANDING ✌️