My Mosaic

Moving is sooo painful @Bow . Have you looked into options and what your rights are if you can't find something soonish? I'm mindful that it's not easy to get rentals now.

I really hope you find things soon.

I’ll be ok thank you @tyme meds starting to kick in.

thank you. I appreciate you alot

I'm thinking of you @Bow

My heart goes out to you.

You are very important to us and this community.

Glad to have you.

Hugs.

It is very painful @tyme and I absolutely hate packing. I often find myself just wandering around aimlessly looking at stuff. I’ll tape a box up ready to put stuff in it and then end up laying on my bed for ages cause I just don’t know what to do. It’s been a very slow process.

i don’t know. I’m hoping the LL has some kind of heart. She is just renovating after all. So hopefully she won’t just kick us out if we have nowhere to go

Little voices are the loudest. I hate the voices that come. I hate the voices that invade my mind. They come at any time and run ramped around and around inside my head. They don’t seem to stop when I say stop. They just keep going and going. They say all sorts of things. It’s always loud and overbearing, relentless and unending. You fat bow. You yucky looking bow. Bow you got no future you worthless and unlovable. That’s always the tone. But a lot of the time they tell me what to do to myself. That this existence is not worth it. Why keep going? Just do it. I try to fight them but why bother when they won’t stop. Littlest voices are the loudest.

@Bow here for you hun!

Could you tell the little voices 'Thanks but no thanks, today I need rest'?

I tried @Jynx i really did

@Bow good on you hun!! All we can do is try. What are you up to?

Nothing @Jynx just laying in bed.

I did some sorting and packing today. Came across things that I had forgotten I had stashed in places 😩

and found things that were really triggering. Take me right back there.

@Bow aww hun, did we discuss this briefly a lil while back? Feel like we did... but anyway, what I remember is talking about how much emotions can come up during this process and how it's good to take it really slow. Sounds like you've already gotten hit with a rollercoaster of emotion!

Are these the kinds of things that like... you could ritualistically destroy? I am just reminded I have this coffee mug that my ex-bestie used to use, I want to like, full pelt HEAVE it at the ground and enjoy the catharsis of watching it shatter. Something like that?