My Mosaic

Tomorrow holds a dream I can reach, one more day to this thus day, a ransom destiny. Tomorrow holds a light that shines internally, a light that’s determined by what’s inside of me. Tomorrow holds a shield protecting my soul, but when released from this earth, becoming a parting dove. Tomorrow holds a key, a solution to pursue, a journey often treaded alone. Tomorrow holds a meaning, a meaning to fulfil, a wish of destiny held deep within. Tomorrow holds a silence that stands throughout the night, a destiny that no one else understands. Tomorrow holds ……, ……… a broken heart is longing deeply …………………..

Some powerful words @Bow and heavy ones... how you doing this arvo?

Hi dear @Bow

Hoping today goes ok

Sending 💗💗

@Jynx 💕

Afternoon @Snowie

not doing ok today. Dropped D off at a birthday party this morning. Have to go get her soon. I spent the whole time in bed.
tired of feeling this way. Tired of nothing changing. I’m over it

hope your day is better

Sorry today is hard @Bow

I get the tiredness, it's hard to continually deal with it.

Sending hugs 💌

Hi @Bow

Hoping today goes ok for you hon

Sending lots of 💗💗

Really struggling to find motivation to do anything and I have so much stuff I need to do 😩😴🥴😮‍💨

I seen my gp today. SW came with me. Most of my bloods were fine. My vitamin D was super low, which she said can contribute to low moods, so she got me on a supplement for that. One of my psych meds was below the therapeutic levels, so will see what my pdoc does with that. But that being low…. And my blood sugars being fine, means that’s not the reason for my extreme thirst. My gosh this thirst is so annoying. I kept track of how much I drank on Friday and it was close to 9lts!! My gp told me I need to cut it way back. 3 max! So easy to say…. When I’m constantly thirsty. I drink nearly 2lts overnight alone.

my shoulder… I got osteoarthritis and other things that I didn’t understand. Lots of inflammation- which I feel alot. I was given the option to have an injection or try some physio. She pretty much discouraged the injection, so now I have a health care plan for some physio 😩 wonder how much that will cost?

she asked if I was driving? 😩 I have my mri on Wednesday.

I have other things I still have to chase up too.
oh and @Jynx health finally sorted their stuff out and I have my script for my stimulant and I’m back on them as of tomorrow. Gosh I sure hope they pick me up again. The week or so without them I have definitely noticed. Zero energy, no up and go or motivation.

@Bow thank gosh for that!! I hope you're back in focus-world all too soon ay!

Oooh physio could be good!! I wanna get physio too my own self - but I wanna find someone who is really understanding of the mind-body connection, you know seeing how the emotional stuff dwells in the physical rather than just seeing me as a bunch of moving parts ya know? You got one lined up yet?

Also 9L in one day? Wooooaaahhhhh you must be on the toilet like constantly 🤣

I hope so too @Jynx living life in this slow motion is horrible. I got stuff I need to do!

Oh I’ve not even thought about that stuff with physio. Think my gp said I got 2 options in town and I got no idea who she is sending me too. Bit heap anxious about a random stranger touching me though.

yeap 9lts. I got me a 40oz drink container and I fill that up so many times. Plus me juice and energy drink. I have not stuck to my 3lts that’s for sure. It’s pretty dangerous thinking this much, but I’m so thirsty! But yes i am constantly running to the toilet! You know I had huge issues drinking, hardly managing any…, so ya gotta be happy that I am finally drinking!

how are you?