My Mosaic

Hi @Snowie ya big cutie how you going today?

@Jynx hard

Going hard @Snowie? So not going home then?

I couldn't help myself sorry 😅 You're always welcome to tell me off when my humour is inappropriately timed.

Anything you wanna chat about or get off your chest?

I get the humour @Jynx I do it too. My kids just roll their eyes at me!

Have written on another thread.

Sometimes it feels comforting sitting in them thoughts. To like indulge in them see what feeels best.

mums away again tomorrow for a few days hmm

too exhausted to fight them anymore just wanna let them

@Bow aye of course it's a comfort hun, those thoughts are coping mechanisms after all. Your brain is providing you with the feeling of relief by showing visions of you without any pain or suffering. Just showing you the silly version where you're not even gonna be around anymore to enjoy the relief!

Sounds like with your mum going away, that part of you desperate for relief no matter the cost is rubbing its lil hands together... You concerned hun?

It’s kinda weird how it all works eh @Jynx how our brains work. But yeah, sweet relief of no more pain.

im finding it more and more challenging. Having that confidence within myself when mums away.

picturing a big yucky monster rubbing its hands together snickering mwahahaha

You been able to let your supports know you're worried about this weekend @Bow?

Omg same, like the one eyed one horned flying purple people eater.... but more sinister, less silly

Nah I haven’t @Jynx i don’t even know if my SW is working tomorrow. I seen her briefly today but wasn’t really the opportunity to talk. If she is working tomorrow I will try ask if she has the time for a home visit and a proper talk. Comm mh ain’t really much help.

You know what @Jynx like back in the day, many moons ago when I use to chat online on chat server there was this lady that use to play the flying purple people eater song every time I came into her chat room cause I dyed my hair purple.

@Bow that'd be good, definitely got my fingers crossed she can come see ya! 🤞

Aww haha was it like a cute and funny thing? Do you still have purple hair? 👀

I have been thinking of dyeing my mohawk again, I've never actually been purple before!! But I'm not sure that my fav purple (like a vivid ultravioletish one) would suit me but maybe if I went like a silvery lavender? Hmmm

Haha you know you could always just do something WILD to your hair to help you cope 🤣 Classic 'mental illness gang' stuff right there 😝

(Side note: I don't like using the term 'mental illness' or even 'disorder' sometimes, cos I think literally everyone here is just reacting very rationally and human-ly to extremely difficult experiences, but like.... 'rationally reacting to trauma gang' doesn't really have the same ring to it does it? LOL)