Does your partner ever just sit and laugh @Jynx i reckon you’d be a ball of fun!
kitties are getting more and more adventurous! Starting to climb the curtains, can climb the covers to get onto of my bed. Little rascals they are!
can I download a bit?? About today?
I was annoyed with myself this morning that I had told my SW that my gp called last week about my bloods. Had to have them done again this week. So we went today and I really did not want to go. I did not wanna be touched. Just not in the headspace for that at the moment. But couldn’t verbalize that to my SW and she started calling when I was not in the arranged meeting place. She kept calling and then spotted me in my car parked around the corner. I got myself there just couldn’t get out of the car. She found me in a blubbering mess but I didn’t have many words and eventually managed to get out of the car and she walked me in. Thankfully no one else was waiting and we went straight in. But my gosh, worst blood test I’ve had in a long time.
Got myself to arts and craft after that. The usual thing… colouring in or whatever you want to do. I sat and did my own thing. (Yesterday I was chatting to my SW about how I sometimes find groups and the office very overstimulating and overwhelming, I particularly told her about group either last week or the week before, one girl becoming homeless that morning and talking openly about that and coming and going, another girl coming in with a bag of groceries that the bag had broke and sauce went everywhere and cleaning that mess and then she spilt her coffee on the table, a group of boys playing a game, a work man fixing a door and then staff coming and going… I was really not coping with the noise) my SW said she’d mention that at team meeting this morning as that’s really not a good environment. But it was all happening again today. A girl was very obviously manic, even though she kept telling herself and others that she wasn’t. I totally get that can’t be helped and it is a mh service, but I struggled! I think I need to start taking headphones. Noise cancelling one’s.
But my own SW was in the office today. She came in and said hi to everyone and then went back to work. I decided to send her a message to ask if we could have a quick chat. She didn’t see it until group was over and I was nearly gonna leave. I sat down and explained to her about what’s happening with my supports and that they seem to of forgotten that this recent anniversary is not all over and done with and I can just move on now. She asked if I had told my new SW and I said no. I just can’t say the words. She offered to help me. She believed I could do it. So we all sat down together, me, my old SW and new SW. I started…. But couldn’t get the words out… just tears. My new SW said it was ok if I wasn’t ready to tell her, I said no, I want to tell you, I want you to know. Just can’t say the words. My old SW offered and I said yes please. So she told her. I felt so relieved @Jynx a weight lifted. She will know how to support me now and she said she is more than happy to help advocate and remind my other supports.
sorry that was a long brain dump
