My Mosaic

Hey @Snowie

it’s a really sucky situation to be in and there is pretty much nothing we can do about it.

my SW came for a home visit this morning. First thing she asked was if I had had any breakfast. I hadn’t, so I had my up and go. I’ve now got the next 3 days where there will be no one to ask me about breakfast. My SW told me that she can’t be the one to prompt me every day, which is true. But by gosh it is real hard.
Also vented to her about my landlord/RE.

I seen my psychologist this morning too. I told her that I have been frustrated with myself cause I allow seemingly small events to derail me for so long. I told her about the guy exposing himself to me before group a couple of weeks ago and then what happened with the old man after group on Monday. She assured me that neither were small events and how i responded is expected given my history. We were going to use one as an example to do some re-scripting, but given they come from significant trauma, we used something else.

I’ve pulled my sewing machine out today. It’s been a couple of years! She was pretty dusty, but it’s all set up and ready to make some Christmas bunting for market.

Will just talk on here @Bow instead of having two conversations going!

I can understand not wanting to take much over on your holiday. Something you have to carry around with you for the whole holiday too. You are right, maybe a little one and leave the rest at home.

I've got my nieces and nephew to buy for. I normally give them money so they can buy something they really want instead of me giving them something they probably not use.

I'm sorry you are feeling that way hon, all those feelings bubbling at the surface. It's ok to feel that way hon.

You really do have lots of talent. Can add sewing to the list.

Sorry @Snowie been sewing!

yeah I’ll have to get creative with what gift I take for D. I want to give her some spending money too as part of her Christmas present, especially for Disneyland, which she doesn’t know about yet. It would be cool if I could gift wrap her ticket for Disney, but then again I want it to be a surprise still.

I work hard at keeping myself busy most of the time, but my head…. Is still so loud and constant. I really wish there was a way to make it quiet so that I can enjoy what I am doing more.

wish I could show you some of the clothes I have made for my D in the past. I loved sewing and making beautiful clothes. But she absolutely hates them now.

No need to be sorry @Bow

Glad you have kept busy and enjoyed it.

It is hard when our head is so loud. Trying to quieten it down can be exhausting.

Sounds like D is growing up. I'm sure she looked adorable when you did dress her. I never buy my kids clothes now without them. What I think they might like is not what they like at all. They end up having such individual styles.

Tried to keep myself busy today. All day at home on my own. The noise inside my head is loud and relentless.

@Bow ! I feel I haven't spoken to you in ages!

I'm sorry it's hard tonight. Besides tonight, how has the week gone for you?

Yeah feels like ages @tyme

up and down week.
Incident after my schema group Monday derailed me a fair bit for a couple of days (I helped an old man onto the travelators, he insisted on kissing my hand despite me pulling away and then kissed me on the cheek again despite me pulling away and saying no no no. Tried to help an old man out and he totally invade and disrespected my personal space).

Went and seen my local member of parliament over my issues around getting a script written for one of my medications. Felt very heard by him.
Mum went to tassie Wednesday. So just D and I got 2 weeks.

Ummm.... was the man from the schema group? @Bow I'm sorry this happened to you.

Good on you for making all that effort to speak to your local member of parliament. I'm glad you felt heard.

Didn't your mum go to Tassie recently? Anything planned with you and D?

Sorry fell asleep @tyme

No, not a person from my schema group. Just some random visiting comm mh too.

she was in tassie a few months back I think. She wanted to go back down before we go overseas.
no special plans with D. We got lotsa things to get done over the comings weeks. But we did pop to the shops this morning. She got a voucher for her birthday so wanted to spend that.

Hi @Bow

Hope today is going well. Good job getting down the street especially on the weekend. So much more busy.

What did D buy?

Sending lots of 💗💗