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I'm safe

I'm relieved to hear that @Bow 🌷

Please continue to stay safe then. And if at any time you dont think you can .. dont hesitate to call for help. Squishy hug incoming 💝

I'm safe at the moment. I'm so overwhelmed, confused, devastated. It happened this morning it's all over. I'm sorry it's all my fault.

Hi @Bow, I'm sorry to here the events of this morning have been really rough on you. I can hear you're in a lot on emotional pain right now and blaming yourself. I hope you're being extra gentle on yourself. Do reach out for some one-on-one support off the forums-

Lifeline: 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467

We are all here with you, Bow.

Sphinxly 🐣

I'm still not sure I understand @Bow . But I'm wondering if your 'status' may have changed? Are you still facing a life changing decision? If something has changed in that regard ... I am so sorry. That would definitely feel overwhelming and devastating. Sometimes things happen, through absolutely no fault of your own. Some things just weren't meant to be. It does not mean you are in any way to blame. 💝

Not anymore @Emelia8 im sorry I'm so vague.

This has all been my fault. I was stupid enough to be out when I was. And then I couldn't make any decisions and just hoped that it would take care of itself so I didn't have to decide. And now that it has I feel devastated yet confused. What else can I do to stuff my life up? I'm done with everything. I can't do anything right.

Yes I know you are being necessarily vague @Bow . I am being vague too because you havent actually said straight out before. So that means I cant either.

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My thoughts are with you, and Im really sorry for your loss. Try to keep in mind that some things just werent meant to be. 💔 You did not do anything wrong.

Emelia 💝

I'm sorry too @Bow 😔🙏💞

Hugs and love hunny. You have done nothing wrong. God is watching over you sweetheart. 💕

I cant bare to live this way anymore. I cant imagine a life where things are better, where the days are better, easier, lighter. Does that kind of life even exist? I didn’t chose any of this. Feel like my life is so cursed, a mistake, so many horrible things, all the layers. I just cant function like this anymore. I'm tired of every day feeling like such an effort. An effort to keep going. An effort to breath. I'm so tired. Exhausted. Life is cruel.