My Mosaic

What's happening for ya @Bow you having a rough time?

hey @Bow i see today's not going too well for you. i'm here and i'm sitting with you 💙

what's your plans for tonight?

Yep crummy time @Jynx @rav3n

nothing planned tonight. Tv and bed

ohh sorry to hear @Bow please let us know how you'd like to be supported tonight, whether that's talking about it, distraction, etc.

TV and bed sounds relaxing, are you watching TV with D? @Bow what are you watching?

I’m not sure what will help tonight @rav3n got no idea.

forced myself to get out of the house today to go to my arts and craft group. Really wasn’t into it though. Sat in the corner quietly and didnt really do much. And then left early.

tomorrow I have a gp appointment with my SW and then I see my psychologist. Not looking forward to either.

watching neighbors and home and away. Not sure after that. I’d like to crawl into bed real soon though. And just sleeeeeep forever

hmm how's this plan - we'll chat throughout tonight and once i'm heading off, you can ring up Lifeline until you feel safe? also just to be clear - i most definitely encourage you to ring Lifeline at any time, not just when i head off. @Bow

that's so fair you weren't into the arts and crafts today, just showing up is a big deal and i'm really proud of you for going!!
is there a particular reason why you're not keen to see SW and psych?

ahh nice!! hopefully watching some drama helps!!

i know you're feeling really tired and low today but that doesn't reflect who you are as a whole. you matter and you deserve to be heard. please don't hesitate to reach out to these services:

• Lifeline crisis supporter (24 Hrs) 13 11 14
• Suicide callback service (24 Hrs) 1300 659 467
• Mental health crisis support — where to get help | healthdirect
• If feeling unsafe, 000 Emergency, police & ambulance (24 Hrs)

I’m gonna take my meds soon in the Hope that they will make me sleepy at some point so I can just sleep @rav3n goodness knows when they will actually kick in though 😩

everyone tends to make a bit of a fuss over me at arts and craft. Constantly commenting on how creative I am, that I will make something amazing. I don’t much like all the attention….. and then the pressure to produce.

I don’t mind seeing my SW. we will have a cuppa after my gp appointment. We haven’t really talked this week. And then she is off Friday… and Monday. I think I rely on her too much. It’s the gp and psychologist appointments that I ain’t keen on. My gp will ask a heap of questions and fuss and overreact if I tell her how low I am feeling. My intake has decreased again too. And my psychologist… I just don’t wanna deal with anything. Prefer to just shove it down inside and slam the lid

we are watching the 1% club now. We like to try and answer all the questions.

what shows do you like to watch?

Aww @Bow I'm sorry it's so crummy. I am sending you some huggles before I pop off!! May sleep catch up to you soon 💜

ohhh that is so fair! @Bow i can definitely understand how those praises can feel like pressure to do more when you barely have energy to just sit amongst them. hope you know that you definitely don't need to put that pressure on yourself!! you're allowed to sit back, and you're most definitely allowed to do little to nothing if you don't have energy. maybe even just being like 'today i really can't be bothered but i'll sit back and watch what you all make'

ah i see so the SW is okay its just the gp and psych that tend to ask questions that you're not really in the mood to respond to. it's good you've got that cuppa planned for after the gp, hopefully that's a nice way to debrief/relax!! is the psych appt last? hopefully you have something relaxing/fun planned for after that session so you have something to look forward to and get you through that session.

how's the 1% club going, you able to get some right? i'm currently re-watching grey's anatomy (one of my comfort shows). i like fantasy, drama, comedy, pretty much any genre! game of thrones & ugly betty would be in my top favourite shows ever. what about you, what your all time favourite shows?

Yeah my psych appointment is last @rav3n i will go home and do some painting- I’m painting some boards to add some hanging space for my art for market. Painting them white. Needs one coat on one side and then I need to flip them over and a few coats on that side. Then I need to add some feet to them so they stand up- that’s the plan anyways. Hope they turn out.

Then I will do some Lego I think.

the 1% club was ok. Got some right, but not the 1% question tonight.
I like drama and some reality shows. I really like survivor and the amazing race. The hunted. I find watching some celebrity shows fascinating too…. The kardashians, currently watching the secret live of morman wives. I’m also watching the resident while I’m on the treadmill each day. Hmm I like watching bits and pieces.