My Mosaic

At least you got some painting done @Bow . What do you paint? Sometime for the markets?

I'm sorry you are in pain. How do you feel after being in bed all day? I tend to get a sore back and stiffness if I'm in bed all day.

If bed and painting was what you needed, then so be it @Bow

I hope today is going well 💗

@tyme I fell asleep again.

im just painting a paint by numbers. It’s got heaps of cartoon cats on it. Different colours. Just something to do. To shove in a cupboard or under the bed!

Yeah I get a bit stiff and sore sometimes being in bed all day. It’s expecting with a bad back and fibromyalgia.

Thanks @Snowie

psyched myself up to get up and have a shower for my group today. Got the text early this morning reminding me of it. Get out of the shower to a missed call and a text from the facilitator that both other girls cancelled and therefore it was cancelled again 😩 that’s 2 years weeks in a row. It’s so frustrating and disappointing.
went down and got my meds and then crawled back into bed.
it’s crazy windy here again today. 💨
my cat is sick I think. 😩

had to talk my SW out of coming and doing a home visit. I was already really not ok when she called this morning, and then I told her group was cancelled. Just can’t face her today.

Sending hugs 🤗 @Bow

I guess a positive is that you had a shower @Bow That can take a lot of energy in itself.

I hope your cat is ok and you have been able to fill in the day 💗

It feels scary this crushing depression that won’t leave my side. Hold my breath hoping for it to disappear, but as I breathe out I sigh knowing that it’s still remains. It’s such a heavy weight. The ache in my chest. it’s the darkness that envelops my head. No light insight. Broken, with no glue possible to mend my broken soul.

it feels different. This crushing depression. It’s scary. The urges are bad. Fuct

hey @Bow im so sorry to hear that the urges are really bad at the moment. the way you've described, i hear your pain and fear. how do you feel about trying the narrating strategy i mentioned last week? all good if you're not up for it tonight though!

also wanted to share one my fav harry potter quotes: "Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light." It might feel really dark in your mind now, but there is light out there - it just hard to see tonight but doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

i'm around tonight so if you want a distraction or want to talk about anything in particular, we're here for you 💗

I’m not really up to trying anything tonight @rav3n just trying to keep my head above water and alive tbh

that's totally valid that you're not up for it tonight @Bow, no stress at all. just wanted to check if you're safe at the moment? is anyone home with you tonight?

i wish i knew the right words to make things better for you @Bow, just know i'm here for you. is there anything i can do to make things a lil better for you? (i.e. can talk about something else to distract for a bit?)