My Mosaic

Thanks @Jynx it doesn't matter anyway Sorry

If it matters to you, it matters @Snowie 💜

But no need to continue chatting about it if you don't wanna 😉 Hugs to you hun 🫂

Nothing matters @Jynx

I'll stop talking then. Prob for the best anyway.

Oh I like that comic @Jynx and I’ve made a few communication cards. Around safety, SI, SH and needing extra support etc. showed them to my SW. I can take a pic of one and text it to her if I need to.

I spent yesterday afternoon and this afternoon in bed. I don’t usually do that. D will sometimes come and have a snuggle.

I booked a nights accommodation in Sydney today. To go see vivid. Changed the original day we had planned though, cause it was going to be wet. Hopefully our new night is a bit better. D is excited.

I didn't mean for you to stop talking @Snowie just giving you the option of opting out! But also happy to chat about stuff - up to you. Whatever is going to be best for you and your mental state this evening.

Aww yay @Bow that's exciting!! You and D been to Sydney before? So stoked for you 😊

Yeah we don’t live far from the city @Jynx @we’re in greater Sydney I guess you’d say. Nice little train ride.

have you been to Sydney much?

what did you get up to today?

Used to live in Sydney actually @Bow - lived on campus at UNSW when I was a wee bitty 18 y.o. I haven't been back anywhere near as much lately. Pretty much as soon as I moved to Melbourne I thought 'aww jeez why'd I choose to live in Sydney this place is waaaay better!' 😅 You visited Melbs at all?

Not much today tbh, I gotta do some cleaning at some point so I have room for making cookies later tonight 😋

Oh a little bitty @Jynx! yeah I’ve been to Melbourne a few times in recent years. It certainly is very different to Sydney, different vibe and all. I do like Melbourne. We found a heaps cool alley way one night, pretty lights and all, had a meal there.

what kinda cookies ya gonna bake? We like the packet ones! 😂 where ya just add an egg and some butter.

I had a rough night last night and really struggled to pull myself out of bed this morning. Being a mum is hard sometimes. School morning routine is exhausting, but it must be done.

my case manager came to visit. We talked for a long while. We talked about ECT. My schema group. My understanding from my pdoc appointment last week was that he wanted to start ECT next week. My CM said that he wanted to hold off on making any recommendations. My pdoc, CM and psych were going to met sometime next week to discuss it further, pdoc wanted details from my last ECT last year and how I responded to it. I said I always measure how well I am by mh admissions, at least that is a significant measurement. CM agreed.
By the end of my visit with my CM I had decided that I wanted to stick with my schema group. And we can look at ECT once my group is over. I did make the comment that I now need to keep myself well enough to keep doing my group and until I can do ECT. My CM said that I shouldn’t view it like that. That I should see this group as an opportunity to help me. And if need be at the end that we can then look at ECT.
I don’t know if I’ll ever get the opportunity to do the group again. It is a pilot. So it may never be ran again.
My CM agreed with my decision and supports me continuing with the group.

I felt such a relief. A huge weight lifted. And I now know what I’m doing for the next few weeks. I do worry about my treatment resistance depression. Group is not the answer for all my issues. It will hopefully help. @Jynx @Snowie

I’ve spent most of the afternoon in bed. It’s bloody cold here today. And I’m in a lot of pain- can only blame myself, but gosh it hurts. Haven’t felt like doing much at all.

Well done @Bow for making such a tough decision. I hope you get full benefit from the group and are able to then face whatever is the next step in your recovery.

Lots of love 🩵🩵🥶🩵🩵