My Mosaic

My heads just not a nice place to be today @Jynx lotsa dark mean thoughts rolling around in there. Telling me what I need to do.

That's no good @Bow - would a distraction help? Remember you don't have to do anything!

Yeah maybe a distraction is worth a try @Jynx

@Bow tell me more about the markets you're thinking of selling your art at!

And how's the little one going?

It’s a handmade homegrown market @Jynx mums done it a couple of times with her small business. She’s signed up to do it in April… I of course have to help her cause she don’t drive! So I said yeah we can do it as long as I can have a corner of one of her tables to display some of my stuff. We ummed and ahhhed about just getting a double stall, but we only have one marquee and I don’t wanna make a heap of stock and it not sell. So if I can just do a little bit and see how it goes first. We just have to clear it with the market organisers. A lot of them are fussy. Ya gotta select a category when applying and not sure if you can add something else. Mum does kids and baby clothing and giftware…. Can we stretch the ‘giftware’ to include my art?

She does another monthly market too… hopefully I can steal a bit of table space there too.

D is going well. Nothing really to report! Just same ol same ol. We are heading outside shortly to see if we can see some lunar eclipse thing that is happening tonight.

how has your day been?

Oh you absolutely can say it counts as 'giftware' @Bow lol if anyone is actually upset by that, they'd have to be a massive control-freak type person. I reckon you're fine, especially if it isn't actually impeding anyone else or anything like that!

Oh what? First I'm hearing of this!! How exciting for your little one hehe. I might have to take my dinner break so I can go see if I can see this lunar eclipse too! I do so love astrological events!

Day has been pretty dull lol @Bow - just got cleaning on the menu for later tonight. Otherwise just been gaming and reading and stuff.

You make a very good point @Jynx its giftware and if someone has a point then…. yeah. Thanks

The eclipse thing wasn’t anything to go look at really. We went out to look at it, such a clear night, but couldn’t see the moon. It was rising on the east horizon. D was heaps disappointed cause she loves that stuff. So we jumped in the car and went to find it. Don’t know if we missed or it just nothing special! But the moon was big and bright.

the cleaning is never ending eh?!

You're welcome @Bow 😊

Yeah I went to find it too - but the moon hadn't even risen yet! So I think it was over by the time the moon popped up over the horizon. Daww, ya little one an astronaut in the making? You ever taken her to a local observatory? I really wanna go to the one down here but just keep forgetting about it lol.

Yep, laundry and dishes and dishes and laundry, forever and ever 🤣

She’s just into so much different stuff about the world around her @Jynx if something is in the news, she’ll research it. If she reads something, she’ll become obsessed about it for a while. She likes to know why things happen, how things work. Maybe that’s just normal for kids her age?
She was heaps into tornados for a couple of weeks and I finally found twister on a streaming service and put it on to watch Saturday night, but the opening scene scared her too much!

yeah there is always something to get done. We had the real estate come to do an inspection last week… first one since we have been here- on 3 yrs. And that was only cause they want to put our rent up and we sent them a huge list of things that needed fixing. He was a strange man!
but our house is nice and clean at the moment. Threw out heaps of junk. Listed stuff to sell on marketplace, did a vinnies run. Felt good.

I see my pdoc again this week (seen him on Friday). He put me on 2 new meds. He said I have treatment resistant depression. He has a plan B to try stimulants (can I say that?) and then plan C to look into outpatient ECT. He is good, seen him twice now. I think my old pdoc was frustrated and didn’t really know what to do with me.
what do people do when nothing works though? …. I can pretty much hear you saying not to think or worry about that yet cause we still have 2 options to try…. But I still worry.

I also messaged my SW today. That big note I handed her on Friday about the changes they wanna make to SWs it’s really been playing on my mind. That I am nuisance and a pain. I asked her if I was being a nuisance and pain. If I was causing problems. And she called me and we talked. But she did not mention anything about that. Maybe she didnt want to cause it was true.