My Mosaic

Much prefer the cooler weather @Eve7 hope your visit with your mum goes ok

I went to my psychologist appointment this morning with my list ready to go. We talked through it all, including SH, ED and trauma stuff. Spending most of it talking about my ED as I don’t actually look well she said. She too asked if I’ve ever spent a Christmas in hospital. So really gotta work at keeping me outta that place. But I just don’t know how….

we talked a little about my trauma too…. She said that she had had a little read through notes from my old psych and mentioned exposure therapy. And that maybe it would be something that we could look at again. But not right now. Just need to get myself through the next month. But the thought of exposure therapy with my new psych… I don’t know. I felt real safe with my old psych. I did have a moment today where I started to drift away and we did some grounding together.

im just really struggling to get through the days at the moment. I can’t deal with anything else that’s gets thrown my way. I don’t know how honest I was around risk with my psych this morning.

Visit was ok @Bow Mum’s hearing isn’t good so it’s hard to hold a conversation with her. We watched Vera together and she asked when I’d be back so I just said after Christmas to which she replied, “so you won’t be back until next year”. I can’t win.

Sitting at the airport now.

Sending you lots of love 🩵💙🩵

I'm glad you got through your list with your psych yesterday @Bow

Hoping today is gentle for you hon

Sending love 💗💗

Thanks @Snowie i didn’t sleep as well last night cause I didn’t have the additional prn meds yesterday afternoon.

I had my bloods this morning, it was an absolute effort to get myself there in time. Then home, only to have to go out again to take my cat to the vet. It’s been really stressing me out, not so much what is wrong with him, just that it’s another mental load that I gotta carry and I really don’t have the capacity for anymore at the moment. Thankfully it was a relatively short visit, and now 3 more meds to try. Fingers crossed.

I had a V, which gave me some energy and I got on the treadmill for a while. And now my friend has just felt. We caught up at my place and exchanged Christmas gifts. I struggled to stay focused cause I’d had some prn. Now I wanna sleep .

what time are you around tonight @Jynx ??

Evening @Bow, @Snowie! How you both going?

I'm here till 9pm tonight Bow! And then I'm on leave until early Jan. I'm gonna miss my forums fam!

You lucky duck @Jynx ! But some much deserved time off that’s for sure! I hope you have lots of chill time with your family and the little ones and heaps of exploring!

A picture I worked on this afternoon for you! ❤️ my daughter chose the colour of the flower

OMG BOW!! IT'S SOOOOO CUTE!!

@Bow

Your daughter must be very attuned to the universe haha purple is my fav colour!! I will 100% be printing that out and framing it to hang in my room 😍

My lil heart has grown three sizes I swear, I'm so chuffed! You're so incredibly talented!!

💜😍🤗👏

Another busy day for you @Bow I hope the meds help your cat.

Hopefully you can get some sleep tonight. Can you go to bed early?

Hi @Jynx just glad today is almost over. Purple is my favourite colour too!

I hope you enjoy your break over Christmas.

@Snowie right back atcha!! Also yay, another purple lover!! Hehehe, here's a purple flavoured meme for ya: