we are here to listen,you are not alone,self care could be a good outlet Ive found I great realse in writting/typing my thoughts ect,maybe some relaxing music at bedtime,a warm bath,talking to someone you know just to help you get out of those thoughts,maybe watch a tv series or go for a walk as a distraction,but please believe me you are valuable to your family and even just people that know you ,they would never want you to leave in such a tragic way,dont forget your a beautifull person no matter what your going through and you deserve so much love and hope sending hugs LostAngel