Hi @Kay2
I just wanted to reach out and welcome you to the forums 
I'm so sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you right now. I also have a lived experience of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (diagnosed several years ago) and I really applaud your courage to reach out for support and start the journey to finding the care and support that you need and deserve. Well done!
I did have a few ideas about a starting place that may be of interest to you ...
I just wondered if you have heard of the Butterfly Foundation? They are a national service for anyone concerned about eating disorders or body image issues.
One of the services that they provide is the Butterfly National Helpline. The Helpline is staffed by qualified counsellors who have also completed specialised training in eating disorders and body image issues.
If you felt comfortable, you could contact them on: 1800 33 4673.
The Helpline operates from 8.00am until midnight 7 days a week (AEST).
I've contacted them in the past when I was feeling really overwhelmed and I've always had a very positive experience. However, having said that, this particular service is often in very high demand and so it's often difficult to get through - but keep trying
You can always leave a voicemail or forward them an email so that a counsellor can reach back to you as soon as possible.
You may also like to have a look at their website: www.butterfly.org.au
Another avenue to receive some support is through the Sane Help Centre. They support people living with complex mental health issues and the people who care about them. The Help Centre is staffed by qualified counsellors and they can provide telephone and online counselling, information and referrals.
The Help Centre operates Monday to Friday from 10.00am until 10.00pm (AEST) and you can contact them on: 1800 18 7263.
Their website is: www.sane.org.au
I also wondered if you have a GP who you felt comfortable talking with? If you did, you could ask them if you are eligible to receive support through an Eating Disorder Plan (EDP). This plan is designed especially for eligible patients living with an eating disorder. Basically, it enables them to receive a Medicare rebate for up to 40 sessions of evidence based psychological treatment in a 12 month period and up to 20 dietetic services with an Accredited Practicing Dietician also in a 12 month period.
Also, your GP may be able to refer you to a Community Mental Health Team for some counselling and support. From my understanding, these services would be free of charge as they are funded by the Department of Health.
Please feel free to reach back here for continued support. The forums are full of wonderful caring people with great insight and ideas
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If you tag me and I don't reply please know that it's nothing that you have done
it just means that I can't login to reply to you (I've had some ongoing technical difficulties) but I think it's all sorted now - fingers crossed!
I hope this helps 
Sending you some hugs at this difficult time ...
ShiningStar 