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I'm new to the fold...a bit about me.
“This aggression will not stand, man.” — The Dude
Hello, I am new and wanted to introduce myself. I am, to say the least, different, often called "odd" and "strange" by my peers and called far worse things by people who are not partial to my particular recipe of eccentricities. And while I'd like to say this is merely the result of an original mind, individuality, a free spirit, or some kind of inbuilt charm, the fact is a lot of it is due to a lifetime of compensating for emotional and psychological "issues". Through years of therapy and self-reflection, I've unveiled a deep-seated rage which is split off and repressed at its core. Though I am compassionate and forgiving of others, I seek punishment, castigation and ex-communication for myself. This self-loathing is how I validate powerful voices which I internalised as a child. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (with psychotic features) when I was younger, however, in my mid 30's I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder as the auditory hallucinations and delusional thinking, on top of the emotional instability, became more prominent.
