Thank you @Snowie No I suffer panic attacks with medical appointments so hadn't been to see a regular GP for a long time as mine left to go back to live in the UK late last year. Although not long since had to see one and found out I had been born with a rare heart defect, but that was at a different Drs and haven't been back since. I am 60 now and still living!
I was attending a community Mental health clinic for a year but that stopped dead at my last appointment. So no, I don't a a P.doc or psychologist etc as I was told that my aspects of Paranoia (which has not been brought up as something to work on) was not working for me in therapy....lack of trust.
i couldn't cope with anymore criticism anymore, was very depressed and felt like I wasn't able to phone my case manage as I asked for something to get me to sleep as I could not sleep at all. This was refused. They know I don't like taking any medication not even paracetamol and I am not on any mental health meds and until recently been good. I had cancelled two appointments had to get away just couldn't handle anything.
This didn't go down well with them.
Just feeling really lost and need help but know now there isn't any.
Really sorry for all of this. I really struggle talking about myself and feel bad for not being able to open up like others. I managed to get an hour and a half sleep so my mind is clearer ATM. 🌻
