Mentally Ill or Not

Hi all,

I am a 49 yr old mum to a beautiful 26 yr old daughter. Until 6 months ago my girl was an extraordinary human being, loved by anyone who ever meet her, with the biggest heart of gold and extremely switched on. I actually have gotten used to accepting complaints gracefully over the years because I received so many about her. " your daughter is a world changer." " your daughter is the smartest employee of this company (550 employees) " " I love her". Then out of the blue she became withdrawn and eventually depressed , extremely anxious, paranoid and suicidal and always sad. She also became completely obsessed with being with me at every moment even waiting outside the bathroom door for me , pacing back and forth. In the last 6 months she has tried to hurt herself a number of times with 2 incidents resulting in the paramedics and police arriving at my residence and them having to inject her with something that knocks her out and then off to the hospital, only to be discharged 4 hrs later both times. I have had her to numerous gps and engaged in mental Heath acute care teams laughing at her because she won't talk without me around. We have been told she is not mentally ill and passed around a suppprt services and health professionals so much that I feel like I'm on a merry go round. She has been talking antidepressants medication for 6 months and yes the intense anxiety attacks have lessened from about 10 a day to around 1 or 2 a day depending on the circumstances. I'm just at my wits end, I have become sad and frustrated with her because she does not do anything to help herself. I love my daughter immensely but having her by my side contanstly ( she even sleeps in my bed and if I try and make her sleep in the guest room I wake up to her asleep outside my door) is not sustainable and I feel like I am never going to get my girl back. I feel so much for her because if I'm feeling like this then what she is felt must be unbearable. She has given up her nursing studies and I have had to leave my study and work because of her distress . I get sad but also angry, frustrated, feel helpless, like a failure as a parent and guilt. I don't know what to do or how to get help for her as I have to arrange everything and if she is anxious she cannot even leave the house to attend appts etc. I feel like I've tried everything and nothing is working. Is this what she will be like forever, will I spend the rest of my life waking up with my adult daughter asleep on my bed or at my door on the floor. My heart is breaking and thanks so much for listening