Going to sleep as an escape

Just wanting to get things off my chest. Been finding it difficult lately.

Changed jobs which has put me in a more challenging and stressful environment. Wanting to push myself while I'm still young but I do worry a lot about work. Lots of fears and insecurities. Imposter syndrome of sorts. Used to be quite enjoy and love what I do but I guess the day in day out repetition has dampened my passion for it. Waking up to go to work and not calling in to take days off has been a challenge in itself. I tell myself once I last through the day I can reward myself, curl into a ball and lay in bed at the end of the day.

Keep changing my mind between not caring what other people think to concerned about negative thoughts people might have about me.

I don't cry and have serious panic attacks as often. I've also reduced my medication which is good. Hasn't been easy or smooth.

It's a battle between appreciating what I have and being grateful for being alive. But at the same time, naively and unrealistically would like an easy solution for stress and worries to go away.