PowderfingerSenior Contributor
Mental health/Family History.
Unfortunately or maybe even fortunately I cannot go back and trace family mental health history. I think I know enough anyway. On my mother's side, my mother's mother I believe had mental health issues. I'm not sure what exactly but mental health issues. My mother's sister has Bi Polar. My mother I'm sure would be diagnosed with something if she would have sought help. We do not have contact. I have no contact with any family of origin.
I was diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, chronic depression and anxiety in 2013. I think it was a late diagnosis.
From my history, I started to notice something going on with me at about 13 or 14. That was then, nothing I can do about it now. Sometimes, I wonder, was I pre disposioned to this or did I develop mental health issues because I truly have endured a heck of a lot of trauma since I was a child eight up until 40 years of age.
I feel my depression started in between the ages of 12 and 15 years old. I'd come home from school, drop my bag, go to my room and sleep for hours into the night. Parents didn't take me to see anyone. I did go to one counsellor that I remember my parents taking me too. I think I had one session and never went back.
I'm just looking for answers I guess. I cut contact with my mom last year. I miss her every day. I just have to keep reminding myself she us abusive and I can't risk my heart, physical health or mental health because I miss her. I'm also starting therapy on Monday to try deal with all the abuse from her and the emotional/psychological pain I'm in. I finally get that I am not the person to save my mother, she needs to save herself.
