CocolocoSenior Contributor
Genetic dx
Hi there. Does any one have copy number variants linked to mental illness? I have two . Both say I have susceptibility to treatment resistant depression.
i am autistic and yes depressed. I however think environment plays a role namely trauma. I have ptsd, cptsd, adhd, anxiety and epilepsy all attributed to both mutations
i think growing up undiagnosed autism and the anxiety that goes with it was tough. Rbfox1 is on health line I regards to anxiety! Joy...... then it is one of the 44 genes in major depression. I was looking up help for depression as at the time mental health didn't care and I almost gave up.
I know you don't get everything on these things. i am also experiencing musculoskeletal issues and hypermobility syndrome.
how do you fight biology? Meds are complex and I am fragile. Paradoxical effects are common and dangerous ones too.
also I like my mind. I think autism is pretty cool at times. I used to think it was just quirky me. Now I am sad.
I need help but I think it's about accessibility not a cure. I feel as if i will be gone. I want to learn how to get on better though. How do you not sound like a hypocrite?
i am like super awkward but kinda pull it off sometimes. I liked me once. Now I feel broken as I have been put down my whole life and this seems to confirm it. I really was missing (part) of a chromosome and had a long stretch of another!
I am scared to post, I was told to and now really more sad. Even peers don't care. Called helplines and got referred but needed to talk bad about ptsd. Not hanging on. How do I win when the odds are stacked against me? Life has been a constant battle and I am not that resilient. I don't belong. I was stalked on autism Facebook pages. Had to block some one. he didn't mean harm,I just am triggered due to past.
any suggestions? No generic look on this or that as it took over a month to get this far due to the layout. I try but needed help. I am ashamed to be alive i am always so sorry