Struggling

Your dog is very cute @Fluttershy1 . And dogs are fabulous little companions and often help to keep us safe. Is she with you now? 🐶 Good night Candy 💤😴

Emelia 🌸

@Emelia8 @Anastasia @Former-Member @Lee82 -

I really just want things to get eaiser, I miss the old me, the voices are loud again, I've been crying, I just feel gulity for who I am.
I feel like sometimes I'm not good enough for anyone I just act like everything is okay when it's not, practically I'm just putting a mask on.
Family don't understand my MH they think I'm just faking it when I'm not I'm actually struggling. I'm really not sure how I feel at this stage.....

I'm scared to say several things because I don't know what way they would take it...

I want the year to restart, I just want it all to get better.

Voices are loud and very disrupting, they can get scary. I really am not sure how I feel. Keep dissociating.
I'm safe ❤️

Honey I am so sorry I haven't been around. I had a pretty terrible night myself.
Never ever feel guilty for who you are. You are beautiful you are unique and you are perfect just the way you are. If people don't see that than they don't deserve to be in your life. I know the feeling of having to put on a mask to protect the people around me. It really is not fair and it sucks.
have you ever taken someone in your family to one of your MH appointments? Perhaps you should take someone with you and get your psych to talk with them. It may help them understand things a little better.
@Fluttershy1

I am here sitting with you hun holding your hand

@Lee82 - they don't wanna attend hun, they make me feel bad about myself.
Had appointments today and they all went well, I just feel like my world is falling apart at the moment, sitting here crying...

I love you hunni xx

@rockypug - are you still around?

That's a shame hun. It would be great if you could get someone to come just a least once. Have you suggested perhaps your psych speaking to them over the phone? Maybe tell your family if they feel like you are faking then why don't they speak to your psych and get the information from her.
Have you been doing anything to try and distract you tonight?
@Fluttershy1

@Lee82 - laying in bed listening to music, don't know what to do with myself, kind of feeling like I'm a failure....

I'm safe.

@NiteKat - hello, just letting you know I'm safe if you are moderating my post.

That's good to hear hun. You are not a failure. You cannot help what's happening to you hun. I'm sure if you had a choice you wouldnt want to be experiencing these things. I'm just so sorry your family don't understand.
@Fluttershy1

Hi @Fluttershy1

Thank you for letting me know. Take care of yourself and keep us in the loop about how you are feeling at anytime.

Kind regards

NiteKat