Struggling

I am not having the best of days today @Anastasia. just feeling pretty overwhelmed with the boys around and having to be present with them all of the time. It is very draining at the moment. I just don't have the capacity right now to be with them which in turn makes me feel extremely guilty for not being the mum they need me to be. I am so damn tired.

What music have you got on my @Fluttershy1

My Mr shaz has his music up loud xx

@Fluttershy1 How you doing now hun? I see that you are listening to music. That's great to hear. What type of music are you listening to?

I hear you @Lee82

I think us Mums are always feeling guilty for that. I know I do. Be gentle with yourself. Remember you are the best mum for them. I think we paint the picture of the perfect life for our children. I know I did. It isn't real. Your kids love you just the way you are. I wish I could help I really do. Always here for you beautiful girl ❤️

Thank you so much hun. You are so right. We do put a lot of pressure on ourselves as mums but I can't help but feel like I am letting them down and it doesn't help when my own Mum likes to point that out to me all the time. 😢

@Anastasia hope you have a relaxing night tonight hun.

@Lee82 @Anastasia @Shaz51 - I'm sorry I'm sorry, I have had a really bad night things are very overwhelming, I'm safe safe safe I promise..

sitting here crying. Not doing well at all

@Lee82 @Anastasia - I feel like I failed everything and everyone today. It's been not a great day. I keep putting the everything is okay mask....

sitting here crying fighting SH urges

I'm safe

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Hi @Fluttershy1

Thanks for letting us know that you're safe.

Are there any distraction techniques your can use these evening to help you get through?

Promise you haven't failed @Fluttershy1

@PrincessLettuce is right, distraction techniques hun. I'm sorry today's has been awful. Tomorrow is a new day. Grab your blanket hun, I know that will help. Hugging you tight, you've got this xx

@PrincessLettuce - I feel numb and lost I'm dissociating a lot. Currently crying, fighting Sh urges. Very switchy tonight, voices are loud and it's very overwhelming...

I safe