Fae_163368Casual Contributor
I dont know anymore
Everything in my life is going in the wrong direction, I have to deal with my brain every single day and it's hell. Sometimes I wish I wasnt here or just somewhere else, I dont know who to talk to, everyone I would talk to is going through things as well and I dont want to add my issues onto theirs. For the past few weeks I've been really down and really numb, minutes blur to hours, hours blur to days and I dont know how to think straight. I cant get out of my head and I try so many things to distract myself but it never works, never do I forget that I am not okay, never does my brain tell me it'll get bettet or maybe that I look nice. I feel like an idiot sometimes when I do this type of thing, I know so many people have it worse.
Tonight everything really hit the ceiling, I'm getting more intrusive thoughts and my urges are at their worst, I'm scared of myself and what I can/could do.
I dont know how to cope anymore.
