QueenieSenior Contributor
Struggling a bit today. Ideas folks?
I am struggling a bit of late. I feel like I've got nowhere to safely vent my feelings anymore. My partner and I met on a mental health facebook group and because we are both admin on that group, I feel like it is no longer fitting the purpose of a support group for me. I don't see a psychologist or counsellor as my psychiatrist doesn't think I need one. I used to have a peer support worker but don't anymore as I've been discharged from the service. That is making me feel incredibly 'stuck' in my feelings about things.
As I mentioned in my first post, I live with schizophrenia and depression. Sometimes I don't feel anything except apathy. My psychiatrist says that is part of the illness though. Sometimes, especially lately, I've been having dark thoughts again. I have voices which command me to do some horrible things but I never follow through on them and never would. I also have feelings of paranoia, that I'm being watched constantly and that people generally have malicious intentions towards me.
I don't really know how to vent or where to do it. I was wondering if anyone was able to share what they do to help get things out? I am supposed to be studying on my computer right now, but here I am, typing this instead. I'll probably fail at my studies anyway so why bother is what my voices say. I just want to succeed.