Hello all,
I thought I would post an update as it's been a bit of a ride this week and so here I am...
My boy is doing amazingly well, 

I am sooooooo happy...
Right now he is currently playing playstation games with his carer in the back room and at 5 they will cook dinner together - chicken snitty and veg and mash I believe 🙂
He loved being back at work yesterday and the plan is to go each Tuesday for a few hours.


On top of this he is putting together a song list in readiness to participate in an open mike night. He has an incredible voice. (Not completely biased he has been told by many lol) 
I am beyond happy with where he is at but with this comes trepidation for the crash as this has always been the case in the past. 😞
I know I shouldn't be thinking this but after years of the roller coaster the crash has always come 😞
My anxiety is through the roof and I was prescribed medication a few weeks back but am scared after years of witnessing my boys journey with the countless changes and tweaks and effects that some have had so I haven't started to take it in the hope that I can manage without. Today I am not so sure...
My thoughts are that I should not be having this anxiety as he is doing so well but I can't help it...not looking for sympathy at all just needing to share where I am at because it is affecting me so much.
I have been asked today if I'm ok from a work colleague and I am working from home so they are only gauging how I am over skype messages.
I know I need to "pull myself together" but I can almost hear the adrenalin flowing through my body... trying my hardest to change my mindset, I want/need to it is just so hard.
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Please don't feel you need to respond, just had to let it out xoxo