Trying to stay Sane

Yes @Anastasia ... I'm here. 😄

Are you okay? 💕

No hunny...it's Dad 😞

His results are showing the cancer has spread

Wish I was there 😞

we could give each other the hugs that are needed right now.

How was today's treatment hun, how are you feeling? @Emelia8

LOl I dreampt I was able to phone them to talk to you but they were like

"There's no Emelia here" I said try Em, try Carol, try sceaming my beautiful soul out, she will hear @Emelia8

Yes thanks @Anastasia ... I'm okay. 👍💗

Just lying on my bed with a cuppa and biscuit, watching the cricket. And trying to "join the dots" and digest your health news.

@WIP ... I thought about bringing my own pillow, but decided not to. My pillow needs changing actually, so I thought Id take my chances with the unit pillows. Turns out I have 6 to choose from, and they are all pretty good.

Emelia 💞

We are cross posting @Anastasia ... I'm slow on the mobile.

I wasnt game to ask you how your Dads results were. I had recalled he had a follow up apt today for his scan results.

I am sooooo sorry @Anastasia that your dad did not get better results. 💔 I feel your devastation, and wish I could hold you tight right now ... and allow you to cry, shout, lash out or whatever else you need. I will sob with you in fact.

Cancer is the absolute pits!!!!!

Gosh ... what can you say? Nothing unfortunately.

I too wish you could call ... unfortunately its not possible. You could ask for Emelia, Em, Carol, Ruby, Sherry or any other name. But you would never guess my real name. Its very unusual, and is of Welsh origin. Family and friends shorten my real name to a 4 letter abbreviation.

Maybe just phone and ask for an announcement to be put over the air ... does anybody know a recently turned 50 lady by the name of MyBoy? Ha ha ... that would get their attention I reckon.

Jokes aside though my dear friend ... what is the recommendation for your Dad now? Will he need to go back on chemo? And will you all still be able to get away on your little family getaway next month?

@Faith-and-Hope 🌻

Em 🌹

So much to digest @Emelia8

He said no treatment for 2 months. Apparently the first is the most successful. He's old and they are weighing up his quality of lives versus treatment. I just am so sad. Putting it into words makes it real.

Ironically it's spread to his lymph. Mine must have gone out in sympathy.

I just want you to know I love you, of all the people in the world you are the only one I have told. I'm yet to go and tell bf. Need to hold it together for my boy for now as he's not doing well. What time is your treatment tomorrow?

Love you

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@AnastasiaThere's nothing more I know what to say than I am so, so sorry to hear the news about your Dad. I know exactly how you are feeling and are actually able to relive those feelings right now with you, as mine are still raw.

It just sucks. It isn't fair. It isn't right. And it is devestating.

Im so sorry for your Dad, your Mum, your boys and bf to hear this cruel news today.

I love you.

WIP & Levi

❤️

I can;t bring myself to move. I need to go and tell them, I can't - thank you L, I love you too @WIP

Big hugs @Anastasia 😔💕

Yes, there does come a time where quality of life needs to be considered. Do you spend the rest of your life having debilitating cancer treatment, and unable to enjoy what's left? Or do you say ... I've tried, but now its time to make the most of whatever time I have left ... so lets pursue that bucket list!

It needs to be your Dads decision, but I expect he may seek input from loved ones. How old is your Dad?

I feel very honoured that you have told me. I know it wont be easy telling either your bf nor either of your boys.

Of course you are sad ... it is overwhelming news to get. But I know you will support both your dad and mum as much as you can over coming months and years. Have they given a life expectancy without further treatment? They are often wrong you know.

I have an earlier treatment time tomorrow ... 9.40am. They knew I was staying on site this week so its easier to be there earlier. Its only about a 50 meter walk, via pedestrian crossings through hospital carpark, to the cancer centre. So its very convenient. The accommodation is really nice actually. They charge a lesser rate for people here for cancer treatment. But are also open to the public if there are rooms available. They gave me a ground floor room in case I had to bring hubby along if I couldnt get anyone to stay with him. So there are rails and shower chair etc in the bathroom, and no stairs and all flat paved paths from the carpark.

Your dads news is going to hit you really hard over coming days @Anastasia ... the news does sound bad. But there is still hope, so dont give up on him yet. What a blessing that he was able to celebrate your birthday nearly 3 weeks ago. 🌷

Much love to you. And remember that I am right beside you. There to give you a hug or a shoulder to cry on when you need it.

Emelia 🌹