Trying to stay Sane

I love breakfast catch ups, my favourite actually, enjoy x

No boys due back 29th. Kinda hoping they stay longer - is that awful haha?!

I have lots of personal growth to do's on my agenda @NatureLover whilst I'm off work. I have it mapped out in my head but need to write my goals and put them all into action. Just taking a couple of days to rest. Bf is at work other than public holidays so I'm making the most of "us" time together without my boy.

I'm going to make a "life I love to look at". I've finally accepted that I'm the one in control of my own destiny, not others and I'm certainly not in control of anyone else's actions.

So lots of small steps but I have a plan now and I'm about excited about what the future holds. I haven't been excited about a future for a long time.

Better go and check out the weather and bf. Love and hugs my gorgeous friend 🤗🍒🌄

I think perfectly natural to want a small break from caring non-stop for your boys @Anastasia . Not the caring as such but the physical caring, I mean.

So pleased you're taking time to rest!!! 🙂👍 I hope you'll take as long as you need.

Also glad you're excited about the future.

Take care my dear friend. 💚

Hi @Anastasia

Very pleased to know that concern about the health of your son and you was a false alarm. That is positive news. I guess, even in that, you might actually have enjoyed the sense of relief.

Thank you so much for your Christmas greetings and, I hope that you and bf are able to enjoy your time together.

The expression that comes to mind with regard to one of your comments is that there is nothing more constant than change itself.

Very pleased to know that your Dad is home, so that you can be more easily aware of where he is at and what is happening for both your Dad and your Mum. Also recognising that the situation imposes more demands on your Mum's capacity. I hope that your Mum will at least feel some measure of satisfaction in fulfilling her own perceived role, efforts and self-expectation.

I really like the thoughts and feelings expressed in your comment:

“I'm going to make a "life I love to look at". I've finally accepted that I'm the one in control of my own destiny, not others and I'm certainly not in control of anyone else's actions.”

You may also, with those thoughts, have become aware that you have no wish to be:

“in control of anyone else's actions.”

“I have a plan now and I'm excited about what the future holds.”

And with that I can only echo @NatureLover's words:

“Also glad you're excited about the future.”

With My Very Best Wishes

@Anastasia

for today and the future

@HenryX

Makes me happy to read of your plans for your future @Anastasia I have no doubt you will smash all the goals you set!

@Anastasia 💚

@Anastasia thinking of you and hoping you're enjoying some rest.

I've fallen in a little hole mentally but am still struggling through.

You've been quiet which I hope means you've let go of some things in order to rest...

No reply needed, just wanted to let you know am thinking of you every day. 💚

Oh I'm sorry you've fallen into a little hole mentally @NatureLover 😔

You've been busy here and with the added stress of the pandemic and Christmas it's not at all surprising. Go gently with yourself. Read, walk, take some you time.

Thinking of you always and leaving you some 💚🌄☕🍒🍓

Rushing off to see Dad before he goes to hospital 💔

Oh gosh, @Anastasia , did you get to see your Dad? Why did he go to hospital?

And are you and your Mum coping OK?

Please tell me what wishes to send...I'm already sending wishes that your Dad doesn't suffer too much, and that your Mum and you can cope...also that none of you get Covid.

I forgot to tell you, my face healed up a few weeks ago, and now my hands are healing, all except a couple of spots.

It's starting to get hot here. I had to go back to bed yesterday after breakfast, but hopefully can stay up today.

Sending lots of thoughts and hugs and 💚

I'm happy to hear your face has healed and your hands other than a couple of spots, credit to you dear @NatureLover. I'm sending wishes they stay healed and continue to do so 🙏

I just meditated...needed to, see what happens...

Dad looks 9 months pregnant. His belly is swollen beyond belief and he's very uncomfortable. Mum is beyond sad. No visitors to hospital. I've stepped back after the last time and reminded mum if she needs help to ask. A difficult position for me but the one I need to remain in for now at least.

So for today, I am washing clothes and tidying up after Christmas and then cleaning. This will (hopefully) assist my headspace and make it a pleasant environment. I'm also cooking a slow cooked casserole so will enjoy that later with bf.

My boys are due home tomorrow.

My friend has Covid. I haven't been in contact with her, was supposed to see her today so it's just a reminder that's it's a risk to see anyone really 😔 Thank you for your wishes about not getting Covid, I send wishes back to you too for the same 🙏

What a time it is NL...I hope you are up and can feel some sense of positivity today. I'm sending wishes for you to feel that.

Love, hugs and an exceptional coffee all coming to you now xox